Friday, 28 November 2008'♥
haiz....i dunno wats wrong...being emotionally upset always...
im tired!!! tired of keeping my own secrets...tired of holding back my tears...tired of it...
isit dangerous if eu keep thinking that eu better be off dead?
haiz.....i dunno y...i keep feeling i wanna cry out loud but i cnt figure it out why i wanna cry...
becoz i always kept silence of my own problems....im goin to be sick again...gonna have fever soon..... its too stressed to think!
my only thoughts were...am i that fat....im ugly right? why do i feel left out all of a sudden?? am i a changed person....
but the only thing i knew is...i never change...
now i starting to be independent...since im working...got my own money....i NEVER ask ma parents money...i start to go gym and try to improve on getting slim back since im FAT now... and im trying to improve my image....and get healthy and be presentable....maybe this is lacking..thats y i hate myself...haiz
ouh god! plz give me strenght to be independent...i wanna change ma life since i was living in ma sorrows for the past 8 years....i've been crying and keeping ma problems for 8 years...and i've grown fatter and slimmer and now in the middle.....penat sak!
haiz plz god....ya tuhan ku...ya'allah...give me strenght to be independent and not to be shy of anything....let me juz walked out of the closet and be myself....amin!!
k lah tc peeps!!! and i have a wish!!! HOPING TO GET A RELATIONSHIP...B4 VALENTINES....
i do wanna celebrate valentines....since i NEVER had once celebrated it...haiz
k lah tc yaw!!
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