Friday 28 November 2008'♥
haiz....i dunno wats wrong...being emotionally upset always...
im tired!!! tired of keeping my own secrets...tired of holding back my tears...tired of it...
isit dangerous if eu keep thinking that eu better be off dead?
haiz.....i dunno y...i keep feeling i wanna cry out loud but i cnt figure it out why i wanna cry...
becoz i always kept silence of my own problems....im goin to be sick again...gonna have fever soon..... its too stressed to think!
my only thoughts were...am i that fat....im ugly right? why do i feel left out all of a sudden?? am i a changed person....
but the only thing i knew is...i never change...
now i starting to be independent...since im working...got my own money....i NEVER ask ma parents money...i start to go gym and try to improve on getting slim back since im FAT now... and im trying to improve my image....and get healthy and be presentable....maybe this is lacking..thats y i hate myself...haiz
ouh god! plz give me strenght to be independent...i wanna change ma life since i was living in ma sorrows for the past 8 years....i've been crying and keeping ma problems for 8 years...and i've grown fatter and slimmer and now in the middle.....penat sak!
haiz plz god....ya tuhan ku...ya'allah...give me strenght to be independent and not to be shy of anything....let me juz walked out of the closet and be myself....amin!!
k lah tc peeps!!! and i have a wish!!! HOPING TO GET A RELATIONSHIP...B4 VALENTINES....
i do wanna celebrate valentines....since i NEVER had once celebrated it...haiz
k lah tc yaw!!
Labels: my life
Sunday 16 November 2008'♥
yes!!! its been such a long time i post out something...
one puff and all the dust blown away...yes yes...ma blog is kinda DUSTY now!!
haha
so lets make it clean....so today...finally at last..(as they all say) ms leong or now to be known as MRS TAN was married....went to calvary pandan bible presbyteranian church at jurong to see her wedding...was kinda long but kinda emotional and yet the best day for her...
yep yep....some do cry when seeing her marrying...some where shock to see her being GORGEOUS....and me...kinda blur...coz i onli noe her for onli 1 year...but its ok...i still doenst know if she still remember me or doenst....yeah...fadhil and me keep dOin some stoopid jokes...about her being forgetfull
so after her solemnization....went to buffet..yes the food is really damn nice...but i cnt list it all....tired....and yea...camwhoring session....with mr and mrs tan...then guess wat...
was kinda broken harted actually....they said band....lets take pics with her....so i thought that i wanna be IN the picture...but it turned out that yana ask me to take the BAND pics...which im actually part of the band members? so i juz said...yea fine ok....but deep inside...i felt left out... but its ok... well i guess the bride forget me as a band member too....haiz....
so went to work then...working was crazy!! but fun lah...and guess waT? got ma 1st pay cheque!! woohhooo and its a 2 week pay...oh well...$184.50...well..better then nothing right?
haha
so now...reached home...and frensta is under maintanenec...WTH!! argh!!
btw fadhil!! eu forgot to take ma T-shirt!!! haha
k till here guys!
tc!
Labels: heartbroken
Thursday 6 November 2008'♥
yea....was really tired today....working was from 5-9pm...sounds kinda short time right? but today was hectic.... ma partner was like wasnt with me when working...so i had to do all the job in ma station....was really damn tired!!! then after 9...met shedah and some of our working frens..
went to orchard...waiting for umi and diyana dunno for wat....then me and others lepak at taka....
yelah umi's brother bought redwine...grappa de anamorne...wow!!! i taste it and guess wat...TK LEH ANG SIOL!! its like soooooooo strong....65%alcohol...and cost almost $500+....ma goodness..
went home with ma bro....and guess wat? ma bro know i melata..mampose arh cam ni!! haiz...
k lah i wanna sleep....its like 1.25am now...haiz...tata peeps!
Labels: tired
Saturday 1 November 2008'♥
ye lah....cn i start with ystd? haha
yesterday....i got off...so went injection in the mornin...then went with mun and fiqah to my outlet to let them have an interview...yelah...member nk kat CWP eh?
haiyo...then after that followed them to international plaza which is kinda cool arh tempat dier hehe
then went back to bugis to meet shedah after work....mun and fiqah left then me shedah and normi went to singapore flyer to eat at popeye...best!! sampai melata all the way..tired lah!
ahah then went home....
today! yes aini birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AINI!!!
woohooo!!
went birthday lunch with sheril,kiddo,ahqi,soraya,me and aini herself.....ate at swensen eh?at suntec..
best!! really full and i think i put on weight seh!! service at suntec is not that good but best lah haha ade kekek nye...and and....hawt² people eh1!
haha
lepak at memorial....had camwhoring session then went home...was kinda gerek lah but then lazy to exegerate...coz im tired!! haha
k lah tc peeps tata!!
Labels: aini birthday
