Tuesday, 23 September 2008'♥
haiz....as ya'll notice nowadaes...every month...i'll post out something about my expression that happened in that month...
so let start.....
this month is
fasting month...yea...where all the muslims/islams all over the world go hungry in the day...where sun rises.....at dawn....they eat....at sunset...they eat....when sun is out...they have to go hungry and remember the less fortunate and be sympathy and clean their souls in this very month....
this month supposely to be good and holy but i still dont get it about this people....everywhere i go....the malays...vulgarities were spouted...right infront of ma face....people get angry..for some reason...the guys were not fasting....like hello!! eu guys don go through like woman!! they have reason for not fasting but why must guys not fasting?its not like their glory holes where torn and bleed!!
haiz
ma dad keep getting angry easily for no reason...come on lah...when i say.."wait a moment" or"skejap" in malay....that means im really busy on that moment...could eu juz wait!! but why must he get angry and start lecturing...ITS WORST THAN A WOMAN!! haiz....ma mom told me that "skejap" or "wait a moment" its like not in his dictionary....well..thats lame...if people were busy...can eu juz wait....if i were to ask him something important...he'll like angryly told me to wait....well hello...be fair ok!! y must adult always have the rights! sometimes i juz dont feel the fairness as humans....haiz...i know we have to respect elder people but sometimes they gone to far and that irritates me!!
haiz....raye more worst lah i tell eu!!we have to down our knees and seek apology from them...haiz...i always hate that part coz...no matter how we said sorry....in like moments...it'll start all over again...haiz.....but at least some sins were erased!!
currently im stress!! exams is like 5 more daes to continue....i have not paid that much attention in school...so now i have to concentrate more....ma mind is blank...i tried to much....i cnt think much now....everytime i used my brain too much....i got migrane and i cant stop the pain...oh well....students who studied hard will go throught this path....and we are students...its a common thing...
currently im heartbroken mood:i juz dunno why but i kept feeling like i wanna cry everynight before goin to bed....1stly...i missed ma old peeps....the one who lost contact with...i miss them!!
And to the people i get to know with...haiz...i juz couldnt help stop thinkin wats missing in me...
currently...im not dating and im not seeing or knowing anyone....im seriously lonely...all i could do is one sided love...yea...the most idiotic thing that happens when someone desperate....actually im jealous!!pipie had a BF and even have more people that like her....yuzir is happily attached with his girl...and supposely loving....zana....juz got a new TTM....haiz...y do they get people easily....like what i meant was....its easy for them to get to know someone new and start a relationship....for almost 2 years fully...im single and not even dating anyone....theres this person that wasv introduced to me but soon gone...happily attached with someone....i was heartbroken at that time....i thought that maybe we could be together but at last...was drifted away....its there something missing in me?or maybe ma explicit big mouth?or maybe ma crazy attitude?or maybe juz that im fat,ugly and people juz dont like my appeareance?actually thanks to someone...i think he's jealous...he told the person im contactin with that im fat and not that really good looking...well i get to know this through my fren...i was like...whose he to judge me?are eu jealous?come one....give people chance ok!! but maybe its juz not my fated...
i tried my luck everywhere.....but still i juz couldnt find love....people said that frensta works...but what do i get?nothing....sometimes if i tried hard...people might juz think that im egoistic and doesnt even know shame....haiz...human nowadaes....i juz couldnt help thinking whats goin right now....
when raye came....confirm i'll be more jealous...coz of my friends...get to go raye with their partner...with same clothething colour....well this kinda sound childish but...raye with eur partner seriously is sweet...coz eu get to share loving moments better with them...for like once a year..
as for frens.....i cnt help thinking that i gonna leave them soon....N levels is coming and goin....and soon...working life...get a cert...and to another school...gonna miss being with them and times that passed by.....haiz...
all i could say is now that....i juz couldnt think straight of what im expressing now.....maybe im juz too tired....
k tc peeps...happy reading aite!!
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