Monday, 18 August 2008'♥
haiz.....love....
nowadaes...its hard to find..or been in love...
goodness lah ash!!still 16 and tokin bout love?
okok i juz wanna express it out lah.....
was single for almost 2 years...its hard being lonely lah....
seeing ma frens attached...seeing sumone happily with bf and gfs....seen ma senget frens attached with their bf...and i dun nyahahahahahaha
mampose ash laser eh mulot!! tk syng oi!!!! nyahahahaha oh well.....ppl have to be open minded...juz accept the fact of wats in the world eu living in lah!!
so heres i wanna say.....i missed being with someone...i miss spending times together.....missed all flirty moments....missed late night calls and messages...missed all those care and concern....miss all the warmness of love.....i seriously missed it!! but who will it be....i dun care who it is....juz as long....it will come to me naturally....i missed being kissed...miss being hugged when i tried to cry but i cnt....miss being missed by sumone....
so i express it out.....actually i do fell in love with this person..but too bad...attached....and another...but too bad...i noe its impossible to be with...so i juz back out and be maself....
even though im single....maybe its the way god wants me to be 1st...maybe after all exams...after all skools pressure...maybe theres someone who will came and intefer ma single lonely life.....
i dun care about break ups...coz thats what a risk that all couples experience...actually if ya'll notice it....breakin up is the most treasureable moment that everyone had kept....they remember why they broke up...and slowly they remember wat were dey used to be when they were together
well i saw ma frens....like they were easily being hooked up and attached from FRIENDSTER...which i find it hard even to find a person...well obviously eu dun even noe the person like eu the way eu are?....but one thing is that...maybe its not ma luck?or maybe im juz plain stoopidly ugly lah.....untill they were scared of me and they ran away from me...not even showing me the frenliest of a fren of being in frensta.....haiz...
oh well....at least i gt ma lonliness group....GUYS!! I JUZ FEEL LIKE POURING MA HEARTS OUT RYTE NOW!!!im almost on the verge of crying eh!!! theres sumtin that i wanna pour it out here!!! sumtin that oni ma closest fren noes who am i and they understand me!!!
everytime im in love....it will bleed.....yes!! thats wat ash is!! everytime he's in love....the other party will reject him and he 'll be stranded away and juz be himself...
I MIGHT JUZ TURN SENGET MA SELF I TELL EU!! SO DUN BE SHOCKED IF EU EVER SEE ME WITH A GUY BEING LOVING² EH?
mcm pasrah eh?oh well,
so thats y eu ppl keep seeing me being happy-go-lucky.....freedom...never being emo...crazy...cause this is all the effect that happen to me....im single always....i have no luck in love...eveytime when i fell in love...not even attached....i was already being rejected.....so the one eu see in ash...was oni one part of his life....he's the kind of guy whose hurt and cried every moment....he's stress and pressure is uncurable...eu cnt even noe wats in his mind...he dun even noe wats he's goin through....
all he knows is....wats goin to happen in life....
i juz need a shoulder to cry on...i juz need a hug to cure ma hurtness....ppl say...if sumone has alot of problem and they keep it....it shorten their life....well...im one of them....haiz....
haiz...even thought chocolate,coffee could relax me abit....but this juz not enough.....theres alot of things goin on in life that he cnt handle...these are wat god has written in ppls life....so all we have to do is to go through all the obstacle that is written...AND NEVER CHOOSE THE EASIER PATH COZ THIS WILL CAUSE DANGER!!
so always be patient and go through the hard and pain we have to go throught and surely god wills....we will find the path we wanted...
so this is all i pour it out.......maybe one day....all of eu ppl understand more about me....
i juz wish eu all could accept wat am i.....haiz...
k lah tc peeps...enjoy ma blog k??
although its boring haha nvm...tata!!
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