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Thursday, 28 February 2008'♥

haha tomorow at last gt modern dance!!
and i just wanna dance!!!

OMG....2 MORE WEEKS TO OUR PERFORMANCE...
im scared!!!

btw...tis sat is the dancework for the open category..
starting at 2pm at vivo amphitheatre....be there aite!!
antibiotixz....i guess tats how they spell is performing!!
ma old dance mates are dancin!!i wanna see!!

2 more weeks and its ma turn!!!wooohooo!!

today in skool!!! SUX!!
i gt migrane and its makin me head spin!!
i gt sleepy and it sux coz i miss some lessons!!!
i gt fed up coz im stress!!! gosh!!!

well get to the BAND......i was like bored when goin home......
so i join the band.....i mean just for fun...not joining it...
then....i play trombone which i miss alot!!!
they were marching btw...

so then....out of sudden...that sejar gnilek....a.k.a rajes...
she like already not in band...and she came and scold the band and ask them to go home..
WTF!??!
she dun have the right...but shes doin it..stoopid teacher!!!
so then we chill at the porch....and then ryzal call...
thought wanna lepak wit him...then he like ask us to wait at usual....at 6..
but then its like goin to rain.....i understand that he has to go home...
its gonna rain and he stay at tamp...sooo understandable lah...
but soraya majok!!! haiyo!! plz lah...kecain kan dier...theres always other day wat!!!
im so stress!!the i tired so i rest at home....

now to ma skool stuff!!!

wow!!!! i neva new i cn do well in chemistry.....doin well in E maths...tryin hard to improve more on ma english...although im good in it but then i have to improve more....read more....!!!!gosh!!
physics...i have to study more on it and need help...and for geo and SS i gonna study more facts!
and Amaths....plz!!surely gonna keep getting ma fav num 9 or ma fav alphabet U....for tis subject...if onli some angel help me one on one on Amaths....

haiz!!!

so now....goin on to frenship....
gosh!!! halim and fauzan are BFF but they have to maintain it well!!!
kecian seh dorg......
then me and soraya...gosh!!! i have to ask her to stop smokin!!she have to...
at least for 8months...she have to excercise...learn how to save money....learn how to eat well...
cut down on coffee.....drink more plain water...change her behavior....as in stop being always merajok lah!!!haiz.....
then for me...i have to be a lil serious in me....i keep joke ard and i guess i hurt some ppl but WTF...i mean even though i hurt tat person...i do say srry and wouldnt bring up the situation...
but why must other ppl kepo wen i joke and say sorry to that person...its between me...i noe yall have the right to be concern to the fren that i hurt but then...dun show me tat whatever look...have i eva hurt eurs????? I CN HURT EUR FEELINS IF EU WAN IT???

and gosh!why must ppl change years by years...more years it comes...now i noe wat ppls true colours are.....i just wan the ppl i noe to be sensible lah.....dun matter if eur close to me or not...
yall have narrow minded......every single things...eu make it big and with empty facts...conflicts started....haters started....eu ppl juz keep labelling ppl....haiz i hate it when ppl change years by years....

dun let me found out.....nerds change to minah or mat and starting to be backstabbers wateva shit..coz i seen it oredi...gosh!!! what world are we living..???

btw here some advice to ppl out there....
if yall feel like im toking bout eu...its wrong...
im speakin in general....

when eu wanna label sumone by how they act....
or eu think they be influence by some....
or maybe eu thought they change and they dun wan eu animore...
think wats in eu.....think of wat eu become now....think how eu change when eur a child up to tis young adult??
think of ppl shoes b4 speakin bout them.....
when eu wanna call them names....
think eurself wether eur very perfect and theres not a name to label eu....
when eur out to disturb some and make them feel bad...
think of wat consequences might come...
he/she might juz commit suicide or might change and be eur seriel killer.....
so STOP TIS NONSENSE AND BE AN OPEN MINDED PPL
come on!!! what world and century eu ppl are living in...
fashions,attitude,behavior.....
things are changin....if eu wanna call ppl names.....by the way they fashion...
see for eurself of wat eur wearing ryte now....bored stuff???folllowing new trends???
on eur own trends???if sumone dress up something not appropriate for them...
den juz tell dem nicely that its unsuitable for them....
dun eu go ard and talkin shit bout it!!

gosh!!! i guess i said enough!!!

for now......i juz wish ppls i noe...could be ma newest connection...
haiz....

i juz feeling bored.........i feel like world is nothing....its just to fulfill eur life....be more religious and have eur meanings of life.....and be a better person...things eu have to change and challenge in eur life.....this thing will end one day....god is just giving eu wat is the taste of being in a world...coz its like a candy which eu cn try out new flavours and eating new brands.....which cn be sweet...sour...bitter...life.....

so ppl out there...take care!!!!
and be more sensible in life aite!!!
*hugs and kisses*
~ASHTON~NAH

blogged @ 18:36

Sunday, 24 February 2008'♥

yea man!!!!! ystd was sooo tiring!!!

was like its a dance day out to find some stuff for performance and me and soraya shopping day out yeah!!!!

we were suppose to meet together at 2 and leave and end up leaving 2:45 as alot are late hahaa!!den while waiting for meiying...shes the last one to arrive...i accompany fauzan to the toilet to style his hair up!!! and ended up that soraya and aini leave 1st to meet kiddo and they window shop at penisular 1st!!haiz....

then we set off to peni(and not penis ok!!! dun be mistaken...short form of penisular for those do not noe!!)and suddenly.....we have to stop at toa payoh to wait for fauzan mom to take his money...

otw to toa payoh....was in de mrt...and i was like de COA there coz....i drop meiying phone and i accidentaly shouted...people were looking at me like one cutest doll*puking*...haha

then we take some hawt shots at toa payoh station..and we end up meet soraya 1st as fauzan mom is goin to be late.....

so we reach peni and meet up soraya and bump into ejat...haha..shoppin oso lah sey!!

den search for a dirt brown colour hoodie..and i saw it...and bought it...and cost $49....there goes ma 1st shopping.....then soraya bought ma cardigen which cost her $20(i ask her to pay tat) and guess wat??? she grown fatter! cnt fit in....she now must extend the cardigen haha...

we set off to funan IT to eat at KFC...and halim gt one group and me gt one group...and gosh!!!

ma group laugh the loudest and as per-normal...im the joker and the COA..haha and we found the biker jacket and guess wat?it cost $165..gosh!! but tats what it suppose to be like...i guess must cancel biker jacket lah!

then we go our seperate ways.......meiying and group go to bugis 1st meet alicia and leslie...me soraya,kiddo,nadia and aini went to far east to buy fried mars bar and wait for nad's BF,...

and after that...nadia enjoy her motor ride with her BF...me kiddo aini and soraya go to THE HEEREN to shop......and soraya was soooo fussy bout choosing havainnas sandel..and end up with the brazillian wateva name sandel...gosh!!! ma legs are tired becoz of her....

and guess wat???the bag i wanted...had a discount there and cost me $48.30 yeah!!!!!!

i bought it DUH!!! haha and thats ma second shopping.Then gone to bossini to buy some plain shirts too!!! haha prangai cheap but hey!!! cheap but nice colour...i like it!!! ahah and o ya fergot to say....soraya and me are tweenie again....we had de same hoodie...coz she bought wit me....haha....

and so...we go to bugis and meet up with them.....and aini and kiddo gone home....haiz....

and o ya.....as pernomal...goin to bugis is always jam pack in mrt!!! and we had to squeeze....haiz..

and meet up halim....fauzan....alicia and leslie...the rest had gone home...haiz....

then leslie bought me to see the jacket they found....and it cost $30...but its ok....its like not leather jacket...its like uniform type...hehe....and lets see how...

then halim,alicia and leslie gone home...left me and soraya and fauzan...and meet up syarizal and his fren...at national library...then we walk to esplanade from there....and chill at rooftop....haha

then make some jokes and gone home took mrt at raffles....gosh!!! such a tiring day....

and btw yesterday peeps are...

halim,fauzan,me,kiddo,leslie,sandra,suet ting,meiying,alicia,nadia,soraya,aini and tats it haha

so i left yall some photos for yall to see!!

weeeeeeee

and here some stoopid phrase for ystd

"humma humma"

"dgr mp3....bill bleh melambong!!!"

"gt a bitch expression face"

"hai korang!!!"

and tats it!!! haha

blogged @ 13:00

Friday, 22 February 2008'♥

gosh!!!

its been long since i upload photos.....and post a blog haha

tired...as always....busy wit skool.....haha

noe wat??tomorow goin shopping.....but with oni $100 haiz......

i gotta find a hoodie and a red top and then a simple cheap trackpants for dance....

o ya....goin wit the dance mates...go window shopping for our performance...take some pic den...

maybe set a date to go shopping......

haiz....juz now after prac....we go lepak...and prac abit at a void deck.....haha gosh!!!then suddenly cheerleading fever was felt there!!!haha and i learn some routine there.....and o ya...gosh!!im deadly tired sia....gotta rest...

tomorow...mornin must tis stoopid project peach......collect newspaper from some blks....gosh!!!

don cha noe singaporeans???leave it to karang guni lah....they need money more than we do.....

why must ask students to do it??if flag day i understand.....and eu dun need a karang guni to do that work......and flag day is to help disable,poor,orphan,old folks....tis cn understand.....but collect news paper???gosh!!haiyo...plz lah!!!

then summore...its from 8am to 11am....haiz....den after tat rest then go out at 2pm yea!!!shoppin spree!!!

haiz...juz now when prac some cheerleading...fauzan accidentaly kick fadhils glory balls!! gosh!!pain pain!!! i cn feel it....fauzan!!!! fadhil want to celebrate fathers day ok!!!!!

haha gosh!!! i cn feel it!!!ooo!!

so.....for the past few days...nothing special happens....oni.....go jogging...fight with some cheerleading group in skool....call soraya minah....and tats all!!!

kk heres some pic from last time till now.....and o ya....MA TWIN AND SORAYA ACTUALLY BOUGHT LENSES.....HALIM=GREY,SORAYA=PURPLE....

kk here goes!!

blogged @ 18:59

Wednesday, 13 February 2008'♥

yeah heres sum pics tat are missing....

haha enjoy!!

esplanade....

de day at changi beach!!!

kecian dah penat...anak terbiar dlm bus!!kwang3

k ders de pics tats were xtra!! haha kk tc

hugs and kisses

~ash~

blogged @ 19:54

Monday, 11 February 2008'♥

haha gosh!!! its too late to post but nvm.....still remember....de memories!!

haha so it was like....normal skool day....we came in to skool wit normal looks..but in our bags...

its filled with costumes and make up haha

its de skool chinese new year performance....and the performing arts have to perform...gosh

we fergot quite a steps but we move on......haha..

so after flag raising...all rush to go de MPR to get their costumes and make up done....haha all like one stampid rushin sia...coz we scared..we're late to get our make up done....

and there we are...in the room....all we're rushin wit make up and costumes....well,amira and suet ting need to put foundation on dier faces..and powder...some of our helpers..include our dancers which were not performing...help to put eyeliner and eye shadows...i were suppose to style up their hair...haha tiring seh.....mrs sharma spray our hair wit red and blue colour...gosh....red is fine but blue is kinda funny.....

then came alicia along....have to do her make up...and guess wat?SHE LOOK LIKE A FREAKIN SAD PANDA haha i was laughin like hell in ma heart but its bad ok....but she look damn CUTE!

haha and i was suppose to draw flora veins besides their eyes...haha and there we are....LIKE SO READY...

like its obvious tat cn see ma normal face and tired face and thanks to soraya for her FACESHOP MAKE UP KIT wakakakak

so b4 de performance....mrs sharma agreed to give us de past to dance in studio wu and get de chance to perform in NUS but sickening for sum of us....we did bad performance...so we didnt get it...

gawd!!!i was about to cry sia...btw im not cry baby ok!! its ABOUT TO not oredi...dun be mistaken haha

then after celebration...well i have to cut it short coz all de perfomance are boring...eventhough its colourfull and stuff....HEY ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR CELEBRATION WAT DO YA EXPECT HUH?

haha

sooo i continue....after celebration....we eat at banquet....gosh.....suddenly amirul was like soo kind to us and i dunno y...and ders de part where i make frens wit fauzan wakakaka

so while we eating....yenny saw us and say hi....and she and ejat...haha standard....and den dey go smoky...and we continue eating...den after eating..met dem again..gosh!!

den we tok tok....and halim and gang was lost...dey left me and soraya alone...sob....yenny and ejat we're catchin movee btw...haha...soo after tat.....

we got back and change and den gone out to celebrate mukmins burfday....haha its advance actually....yeah met him and his fren at mini toons and den make way to yoshinuya and eat....

i dun eat der...coz its non halal mah...haha trying to be innocent...BUT HEY..I AM!!! haha...den we met soraya der....and last came maidee.....we'll we met at LJS coz me and soraya hungry hehe....den me and maidee bought his a chocolate and strawberry mousse....its nice btw...ermm from 4 leaves...AND I NOE ITS NON HALAL....GOSH DUN TELL ME haha i noe i noe ;) haha den we go gelare and eat ice cream and gosh!! i wanna eat der again lah ahha!!!so damn nice!!!

well his de burfday boy!! happy burfday mukmin!! haha

then headed our old dance prac dorm..and celebrate der...and guess wat?? saw ryzal lah sey!!

soraya was damn happy!! muakakaka den irin tag along....gosh....haha den normal stuff....duh!!celebrating burfday haha....and mukmin and maidee had to go home...and irin too...aww miss dem soo much...muacks!!!

well me and soraya head off to city hall to underground esplanade to meet kiddo and his dance mate..which surprisingly i noe ahha....gosh!!!so...we lepak and wait for aini and her gang....haha

gosh!!! kecoh seh wen dey come...and we set of to clark quey to watch firewerks...and goodness!!

its finish....and der we are...lepak like drunken teenagers like we have no home to live...haha and me and soraya make our own recording...singin some stoopid songs..haha and gosh...our voice is great...should make a duet...and im speakin de truth ahaa....and ya...a group of hawt italian ppl ask for direction to go to esplanade....haha and gosh de gals and de guys we're sooo damn hawt...feell like taking down deir num hahaa

so after all said and done...we gone home....and ya...aini and de gang do de keng kang song and dance move...all de way from clark quey to raffles mrt station...and ya we stop to take a pic at tis hawt dark alley hahah kk heres a photo at the alley.....srry oni one pic coz on tat day i dun have de mood to cam whore much haha!! btw like normal...gone back at 11+

and i noe we look ugly but tats fine...we gonna pose more hawt haha more like a model aite? wakkaka

blogged @ 17:17

Sunday, 10 February 2008'♥

oh gawd!!

haha today was de fun day eva.....
went out to esplanade...to chill haha.....and it was like.....suddenly..cam-whoring!!!
oh no ma face is damn popular hehehe

well gt to say tat we supppose to meet at 4 and i was like late a lil...but gt to wait for khalia...
she took almost half and hour to reach...and she brought eileen along....(if i spelt it ryte!)
den we took of to esplanade....and end up like i said...cam whoring.....
from 5+to 730....we keep taking pictures and be some kind of pathetic models....and ahmad and saddiq was like a gas pipe bursting haha...cnt stand de smell
den we took of to memorial...which was ma plan...i think haha.....

and der we are.....khalia,ahmad,kuzzie,me.saddiq,ryzal,kiddo....and some of de sec 1 guys...and we were like cam whoring again....with "perfect model poses"....like...eg:jumping,ass popping,stepping cute and other stuffs....ruth and sheila and her bf i think...came and dey join us for a while...us playing truth but without ruth and sheila and her guy.....and OMG....dirty little secrets are expose lah sey!!but wat happens der ends der.....no more draggin along...haha

too bad ms. hyppo didnt join us...she misses alot of stuff..haha
and then suddenly....while playing de game..i've been forfeited and was ask to shake infront of a sleeping,drunkin chinese man....oh gawd...ist he horny seeing me shaking ma thang infront of him...
lucky he didnt notice....and den....minutes later...gt world war three haha.....at memorial plak tu.....
i guess de dead are enjoying....flying lamps were thrown like bomb in nagasaki haha

oh gawd stop it sia!!!den we continue lepak till we go home ard 11+....am im sooo tired now...gotta sleep.....haha nyte2 and tc guys!!!!

blogged @ 00:19

Saturday, 9 February 2008'♥

haha oh gawd!!!

seriously it was like great goin to changi......tents everywhere...like all people in singapore wanna run away from home gosh!!

o ya even saw zana's favourite groups of man...the bangladash haha...kk am not trying to be racist or watsoever....but plz....if yall wanna swim or suntan....get a proper swimming trunks to wear.....

seriously changi beach was sooo full pack.....full house....even i cnt recognise jamaliah's tent..

and guys....BEWARE..when eu go to the public toilet...make sure dont focus on some stuff....

parents let their sweetchild naked and running around after bathing..GOSH!! wrap them in a towel or sumthing....arent ya scared maybe pheodophiles are around watchin eur child naked??

and make sure they dont pee anywhere...coz ppl may thought thats a clean puddle and wash their feet and....and got to find out...they got a new "perfume"...maybe better then armani,bvlgari or DKNY...I JUZ CNT LOOK!!eewwww

haha

anyway....i meet new frens when goin to changi...sumhow its jamaliah's frens.....

nice meeting them anyway...

and i gt back and some of them chilling around at admiralty....and i join them at ard 9+

was actually gOin to jamliah's home to watch "the house"but get to know the CD's is wit her sister...haiz...and fauzan keep telling me that he wanna buy jamaliah's plasma tv...GOSH...cnt stop sia....haha....so we went down to vista park to chill.....and end up playing swing...

and idiot me....I POLE DANCE infornt of fauzan..zana...jamaliah and liza....gosh!!!

i caress them...wonder if they got horny...haha and btw its not molesting ok!!!i dont molest...

ima good guy haha

so let me end up tis post with some pics aite??

take a look at it....but theres not pic at the sea for the moment.....need to get the pic from zana haiz

kk take a look..and sorry haha the picture is up der...DUH!!

blogged @ 11:06

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like hello!! haha

yeah azhar here....a.k.a ash....(thanks to modern dance...givin me tat nick)

muakakakak

as ya'll cn see...im NEW!!

A FRESHMAN!! oh gawd...

nvm...wish me luck for doin a new blog here haha

tc!! much² kisses..muuuaarrrccckkksss!!

blogged @ 11:00