im crying over no reasons..i keep bleeding in love

SAF

2010-06-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

tittle:SAF over

finally after a soooo long monthy intensive training.... it all paid off for our very big event at singapore arts festival.. we do rock on and dance our feet off together with the fabulous band hahha doctor jonneessss haha

even though loads of us feel sick and stuff... and things happens... we still did a great job

and today... something juz shook us.... our teacher for CEMTA is leaving us... to pursue her dream to be a lecturer and she became the event management lecturer.... am really proud and happpy for her... but we do feel very emotional as she had to leave... after all sacrifices and hardwork and care and concern she put on us for us to be pursuing our dance CCA... haiz... we love eu and we all will always miss eu ok!

we pray that hopefully eu might upgrade eur career to be a lecturer in poly and might be higher in level =)

well i couldnt say much now coz off all our tiredness and emotions goin right now and im having fever... which obviously my brain is not functioning well

well see eu soon peeps muacks! =)

dusty

2010-05-24T01:00:00.003+08:00

tittle:blog is dusty....

haiz.... blow harder... come on... its super dusty haha

i noe i've not been blogging for a LOOONG TIME...
bz with test and SAF pracs and rehearsals thats why... haiz...

gonna exam in like 2 WEEKS TIME? cn die lah haiz...
i really wanna do well and get good GPA for this module =)

anyway... i really wanna dance well for SAF soon... finish up and polish up for nurses day dance crew.... and singing well with lilly and whoeva i gonna sing with soon... haiz...

life is a total mess right now and its changing.... i cnt decide reality now... =(

yog celeb

2010-05-08T16:22:00.002+08:00

tittle: ystd story

right after dance.... went off to meet dann and dhie in train... naz and i saw this auntie at tanah merah station... wore the same colour top and the SAME BAG! tsk! so jatuh my waterface ahha

anyway... met radyn and yoz at somerset... then the others at @scape.... was ok lah the event.. see for a while oni... then meet up with ayme,iffah and ronnie at ceine... then off to taka to meet the saras .co ahha rishi met us there too.... then saras.co and naz left.... so us went to ion to have dinner.... then off home...

sounds bored right? but ok lah ystd haha

anyway today suppose to go study at my house... but still haven get an answer from the vodka ppl! tsk! am still waiting ppl! =(

weee xoxo

study study

2010-05-02T00:02:00.002+08:00

tittle:wcp

fuuuhhh am tiirreddd haha
studying at west coast park jus now with the vodka clans,sham and alia and fahmy and ayme...

was a good study gathering though with potlucks.... burrrps! haha

had good time studying and "ambience" and yeah.... even had time to play the spider web thingy haha
went off to continue studying at the nearest block and off home at 10pm...

am soooo tireeddd.. dancing was such a chore now.. gt loads of things to learn and buck up on techniques... and its ending more later then ever.... nvm... juz another month and off to the show and done =) im hoping that all our efforts will pay off really well in the big dae =)

mwah2 nite2 =)

phase test

2010-04-25T14:52:00.002+08:00

tittle:dissapointment

ystd was my phase test... and i failed... haiz... due to careless mistakes... haiz... i had done well if i didnt get the wrong stuff...

anyway... thanks for the encouragment and spirit lifting... filzah and nazirah... hugs2 muacks2 haha

so after phase test....went to cemta for awhile to meet the guys.. well they had dance session which had ended haha tsk! then we went off to kalang to meet the other dancers....

we all went over to kalang leisure mall.... had bowling session and was great!! had fun time with the dancers... haha lady gaga and honey b did well ok! hahaha

jokes and dinner was fun to and off we went home ard 9+.... gosh im soooooo tired haha

but i still got another problem to solve.... retest... haiz

haha nvm... gd luck for me though for the next test =)
tc peeps muacks2 haha

i dun likeee

2010-04-18T01:10:00.003+08:00

tittle: i dun like ma brain ahha

well2 today went out with vodka peeps,dann,dhie aini and supposely sham and alia but i dunno where the hell they gone to..

today's plan was suppose goin to kite flying at marina barrage but weather doesnt look so good... so "hero" decided that we watch movie... went to marina square and rishi suggest to watch shutter island wooots! haha

"luckily ma sandwhich and turkey ham is eaten by them" haha

picnic at theatre hows that? ahah

so the show was about an insanity mind... well eu need to catch it to noe the whole story... it makes me insane too!!!

i dun like my brain...

TIK TOK hahaha

aini brought her DSLR and its sooo camwhoring moments... DP's soon kkk kk? haha

haiz... life becoming more complicated lately... tsk... i dun even noe how to decide that being older is more better then ma past years... haiz...

kk tc peeps mwah mwah =)

after danced

2010-04-12T00:18:00.003+08:00

tittle:3 weeks past

yeah.... 3 week had past... our preciour hols...
i didnt get to enjoy much of ma hols coz i was bz dancing for the whole 3 weeks... tsk!
i promise maself to get involved sooo much and see wat happen? =(

anyway... yester yesterday was youthout and fresh element won first! woots grats guys!
although most of the group there was soooo smoking hot lah! tsk! haha

i party like wild animal. oni ppl there with me understand understood haha

anyway tomorow schooling! tsk! juz now went to do project with baby,babyiffah,rishi and wii but he go off earlier... supposely i go of with him but dance prac was cancelled =)

so had much time chit chatting and filzah fren was there tooo hahaha
and guess wat? camwhoring was sooo bitchy hot! hahahah and and and saw filzah sexiest photo waaaay back her 16 y/o days hahahahahah

so yeaaa tomorows schoolin hopefully i love ma brain tomorow..
i gonna sleep hahah gonna meet all ma sexy ladies tomorow wooots! tata nyte2 peeps sweet dreams! hahaha

titans

2010-04-03T23:50:00.002+08:00

tittle:3d

yeah2 granny's out from hospital then rain came pouring down super heavily... GREAT!

anyway afternoon met up with the VODKA peeps haha went over to orchard to catch clash of the titans 3d...

actually wanna watch the dragon thingy but its selling fast even on the next earliest timeslot... then thought of rec2 or ju-on and its the same... so off to lido to catch it...

was cool... giving a rating of 6....

yeah b4 that went dinner at this nasi ayam penyet stall AND OUH GOSH! its freaking nice laaaahhhhh and im bloated until now! tsk! i need to shit!

anyway tomorow's ma first day teaching cheerleading? hahahahahhaa shit! and i dun even noe anything... haiya.... kkk tata peeps and freaking tired!

nyte2 =)

story of my life

2010-04-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

tittle:bz hols

yeah2

its beeeeeeeeen soooo suuppeerr duuuppeerr long since i update ma blog! tsk!

hols has been very very bz for me...... i have dance pracs now coming to every single day since cca fair is coming on 13th april... haiz... gd luck for me and rest ahaa

then no plans at all with clans.... but maybe soon lah... when brends and dhie comes back from cambodia... wooots!

today went swimming with sheril aini and irfans sisters,brothers haha was ok lah..... anyway gd luck for the opt sheril... i juz noe... tsk!

then afternoon went to rebond ma hair....WOOHOOO at last... for all my life i wish for a rebond and tada!!! but still... its not really that str8 penyapu lah haha

then when i reached home at ard 4 plus... had to send ma grandma to hospital coz she cnt tolerate her fever... haiz... called the ambulance... which have this CUTE guy paramedic.. tsk wth! hahah and send her off to NUH...
juz gt back at 10...

baby filzah and wira gonna visit her tomorow... how sweet! and shopping time with movies!!! hahah =P
anyway rogue and andre came visit at 11pm juz now... hahaha toilet purpose since they were near my area....

well gave rogue her b;day pressie! wooo haha HAPPY ADVANCE B'DAY ROGUE!!! 19TH EY? AHHAHA

anyway... kinda getting closer with the dance peeps at school... had fun lepaking with them weeeeee monday gt dance... tsk! anyway gotta sleep now! out with darls tomorow! tata hahaha =)

poke

2010-03-14T14:53:00.002+08:00

tittle:poke poke poke her skin nananananna

"POOF" sooo dusty haha... well school has started a week past.... and things were kinda relax and ok now....
stressfull as soooo much things gonna happen in 2.1... haiz...

more things had happen.... sickness...new relationships... new class... more intimacy... we cn make a soup opera in our class already..... its sooo gonna be a grammy award titttle ahha

so last fridae had insulin test... all went smoothly and well except yusri who actually took the wrong med and fail... haiz....

anyway... after phase test.. we went to eat nasi lemak at changi... yums2... then in the after.. OFF TO SHOPPING!!!!

then at night met up with zie and gang... and had sheesha and drinking sesssion... NOPE I WASNT DRUNK.. i was juz restless... coz its a tiring dae... since early in the morning and late at night... haiz..

anyway... ma mom stroke came back again... haiya... hopefully she's gonnna get better sooooon

NO MORE COKE FOR EU MOMMA hahaha

swimming

2010-03-06T23:44:00.001+08:00

tittle:tanned

woke up early morning... thanks to ain to call and wake me up haha get ready and went over to meer rogue and andre at yishun haha... had breakfast at mac then of to swimming suit hunt at mustaffa centre... nowadays the weather is freaking hot! it feels sooo malaysia already haiz...

of to jurong swimming complex to meet yan and ain... had a hell of a time swimming and gt tanned...
dinner at jurong point banquet... and off lepak ard ma house area.... ain and yan went home 1st haha thanks alot for andre to send me home ahha ceyyyy

had great time today and really need to rest!!
freaking tired laaaaahhh haha

tata ppl nyte2 sweet dreams aha

percy

2010-02-27T00:47:00.002+08:00

tittle:lightning bolt

after work today... went out with MH to movie haha woooo.... met at school 1st then off to movie....
percy jackson and the lightning theif and kickin cool!!! wooo

i gave it ermmmm 7? haha was full house so we gt the 2nd row seat... but it was fine for me haha...

then off to dinner at popeye... then zie and iqa came to meet me...

lepak for awhile at the park after iqa went home... and yea... juz sitting and stuff haha

was cool goin out with MH and i wanna go out with MH again!! wooooo

zie i "date" eu next time k? ahhaha

muacks2 ppl!!!

paul frank

2010-02-25T20:19:00.003+08:00

tittle:param.assis.

yea2 juz one more week and we're done working wooooo
salary for 1st ward still not in!! haiz i really wanna buy that jacket!! grrrr

anyway got ma paul frank specs.... and today went back to school for the YOG briefing and phototaking... sexy ey? haha hopefully they get the better pic of me haha =P

things being goin ok lately.......

contacting with someone lately.... and i really wanna get into knowing more better..... =P
hopefully it'll be a long way one =)

grrrr

2010-02-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

tittle: to love...

was wondering... wat does it feels like... when eur datingship was on a rock... eu let go that someone juz to let that someone back together with its partner... and then times passes and now single... eu tried to contact back... and lastly eu end up heartbroken back coz someone changes its mind... its either doesnt wanna contact eu back... or juz change and mend its ways and told eu that we cn never be together anymore...

haiz..

after such long waiting... im still on the rocks of suicide... im creating my own suicide point now... eu thought eu could get the love back and start all over again but it was jeopadized by some unseen circumstances... haiz..

well if thats the case... that is my life... i will never find someone perfect... even juz a date with.... haiz...
i tried to be positive but the reality juz hits my face back...

its juz bull shit... totally...

since i started to noe wats love... always gets the same reason when they wanted to stop contacting... how cliche and irritating is that? haiz....

thats it... im tired of it.... it seems like i always put on too much hopes... isitn that right so? haiz

so cold

2010-02-06T13:27:00.002+08:00

tittle:bothering

2009 has pass by.... welcoming 2010 is like a bless to me... but i juz dunno if its blessfull enough...

my wished fo something different might be coming true...

forgetting the past is really hard and cruel... but i think its simmering down... i ferget all those moments... starting a new page is like starting a new life from the very beginning.....

currently i felt like im kinda lost... contacting someone back might thought of getting me happy and occupy my lonely spaces... but it seems that... someone was bz maybe? or maybe its juz different to be contacting back after quite a while...

people whom i knew now have partners in life... hopefully their happy now... it seems their wish had came true... to find someone new and to be loved....

haiz... am happy for my frens to be happy.... but then come again.. im not happy to myself... i juz feel something missing...something gone from part of my life.... somethings wrong... and it shouldnt be that way..

haiz... maybe i think too much? haiz... and my memory is not that good anymore... i keep forgetting things.. i dunno why... STM maybe? haiz...

anyway.. next week am changing ward... gonna miss some of my pt... "wak" and "shift" aha and he suppose to mention it shave but he says it shift... wth... and my LADY GAGA BIG TIME FAN.... my scared uncle of weight lifting.... the ward will be such a sweet remembrance to me... =)

goin to another ward will be a big challenge now... haiz...

anyway.... juz another 4 weeks and i'll be back in school! ouh gawd how i miss school alot! =)

maybe back to school might change me again? haiz... and i gt another wish..
to bring everyone of us back together and not to seperate... its like the old us in 1.1/1.2... the weeks where we guys are so tight and bonded together... haiz...

thaipusam

2010-01-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

tittle:thaipusam

yea yea went to mustafa centre juz now and all i grab was perfume haha ck one ok! haha
gt to watch thaipusam... ooo wira was enjoying their acapella haha

then met bella at dhouby ghaut... went dinner at amk at charcos then off to prac at yck cc...

wooooo tiring!!! then came fahmy to prac lil and we're done for the day! gosh am sooo tired!
dun even have mood to blog haha but still alil update ahha

when the thaipusam right... i suddenly wonder how annu and rishi celebrated it hahaha
k peeps gtg sleep zzzzz nyte2 =)

sims

2010-01-26T22:31:00.002+08:00

tittle:sims/beach

woots! back to sims centre!!! and and WAS HAPPY! hahah met new faces.... and damn today was great!
annu,sam,rishi,pete,dann,fahmy,zie,atiqah,nazirah really2 brighten my days....

haha had fun sim-ing today... 1st roleplay... me,sam and rishi volunteered... sexy ok! since we were praised the best roleplay wooooots! haha lunch today is KAKI TAMAGO!! woots! with dann and rishi! sexy!!

then in afternoon....aini and iffah came by to do the survey thingy with me.... then got to noe.. fahmy too and bani and sexy brenda haha so do together then i went off to meet zie and atiqah... survet sux lah... too many questions and too personal.. kinda make me feel moodless then haiz..

anyway to changi village with them... the otherrs went home... haiz...
so ate at changi beach... NASI LEMAK OK! haha then with some sweet songs with sunny see breeze... IT HITS THE SPOT WHERE I WANTED TO HAVE RELEX THINKING haiz....

then some pic-zit,swings and stupid chlidish playground games which makes me loose all my stress fer awhile haha

then off home.... now damn tired!! and tomorow morning shift... haiz..
ccb!

kk peeps... love eu much2 ok! muacks!
tc

seds seds

2010-01-24T00:07:00.002+08:00

tittle:nice2 haha

well today dance prac with ma nurses from 4 to 8pm and srry syu for me coming late... =(
so had practice... almost finishin up the whole choreo wooo!!!

out dinner then with darling fahmy,wira,filzah and iffah! haha
me,filzah and iffah had lambchop....
wira had half spring chicken with rice and fahmy had ayam penyet...

well i treat them though... and wira treat bottles of drinks and 2 packets of $4 char kuey!
OUH GAWD!!! WE BLOATED OK!! i last man standing had to eat everything up haiz...

play with alcohol wipes was the last climax haha suke fahmy and iffah??

haha

k lah peeps! i gotta rest! 1st need to release off my bloated stomach =P haha
tata peeps muacks!

lifes like a dust

2010-01-15T20:58:00.002+08:00

tittle:dust

*cough2* long time didnt update... dusty lah haha
was caught up with attachment and i hardly blog..... haiz... today juz ended ma whole week attachment at eldercare centre.... was cool... kinda fun.. and sooo much experience..... =)
goin back ward the coming weeks... well... working is fine... we have a dance performance for yr 2 nurses grad.. and this monday is the audition... so gotta proove them we're good =)

tired tired tired and i juz cnt wait to go back to school.... working is cool but its juz too boring... not a life for me...

had flashbacks today and i juz end up moodless in the end... haiz.. to me... past and presents looks and feels the same... haiz...

anyway tomorow we're goin to have a surprise wooots!! ppl! shh aha
=P

get well soon

2010-01-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

tittle:get well soon nazirah

went off to ttsh today to visit naz... hospitalised ystd for some reasons.... haiz.. gett well soon MJ BIG FAN ahahaha

srry wi for coming late tadi... haha oops!
anyway..

after visiting.... went off for dinner at kfc... then to lepak at near united square shopping centre... theres a playground arh... aha then some seats.... chilling and nothing to do and i play with my alcohol wipes and then...
THANKS RISHI FOR ALMOST BURN MY HAND OK!! hahah i was freaking scared and filzah shouted... omg... i scared sia!!! thought that i was on fire!!! haiyo... but the blaze was cool lah hahhahaha wth

then we went off at abt 9pm+.... haiz..
next week ... off to hougang for attachment at some rehab... boooorrriiinngggg haiz....
tc peeps!! muacks!! haah

so long

2010-01-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

tittle: woots!

yea yea... been bz since attachment started... haiz... 1st day was ok.... get into new ward with more new faces and collegues haha... today was kinda bad day... but its ok... its a part of my job...

was fine for 1st 3 days... next week.. attachment to senior citizens rehab centre...

and im freaking tired now!! gotta sleep sooooon! haa

anyway.... thanks rishi for a surprise cake for me ok!!! haha awww swweeettss of eu!!!! =)
kk ppl gotta sleep!! nite2 muacks!

soccer at tkss

2010-01-03T12:54:00.002+08:00

tittle:their soccer match...

well 2nd day of jan... and the 1st outing haha... went off to watch the nursing guys play soccer... together with wira's fren haha and dinie... well office boy lah he ahha wootS! haz and her fren munirah came late though... gotta fetch them haha and brenda... EU NEED TO SETTLE SUCH PLACE!! cambodia brenda cambodia haha singapore cnnt wanna go cambodia... haiya! haha

reached there at 4pm+... then sat down and watch haha best ok!!! and i gt wrong information lor... they lose and i thought they win... wth!! paisey lah ahha

then at 7pm+ went to dinner with dann,dinie,filzah,wira and his fren,yazid,iffah and jeng jeng jeng,haz,munirah

haha woooots! ate dinner at mr teh tarik house... haha ok lah long time didnt have dinner there lor hha

and when at paya lebar station more worst... dann and dinie always gt trick to the wrong train haha and dann... eur smngt to take our train is true ok! thats the train to aljunied!! too baD!!! aha =P

anyway i will update photos in fb ok!! woots!!! tc ppl! muacks!
PS:nurses!!! one day to go... =(

a brand new year

2010-01-01T08:04:00.002+08:00

tittle:2010

ystd... celebrated burfday with wlds peeps! kiddo,sheril,aini,makolyn,zhenqi and me.... off to botanics for our picnic... was fun though haha!! a surprise cake for zhenqi and me... which doesnt turn out surprise when sheril and soraya came out from behind the tree... singing it... and startled when the candle is blown.. thanks eh haha

had great camwhoring juz now wooooots!!

then off to padang to meet soraya cousin and frens... and waiting for radyn and peeps.... and iffah,dann and dinie... woots! haha

thanks guys for coming down countdown together.... =) at least it made my day =)
and when night turns.... soraya and kiddo went off with her cousin and frens to photo taking of fireworks at one fullerton... me,radyn,yoz,hazi,yoz's fren,iffah,dann,dinie and came mukmin and his fren.... and we lepak till firework.... boozing and pakistan was great! haha was tipsy though... poor hazi she's drunk... haiya... haha and yea... came along fahmy and syaf woooo! ahha

now 2010 comes!! hopefully no sorrows... i will try to leave the past.... i dun want it haunting back... haiz...
so then went off to meet ain,azmick,sri,soraya,kiddo,yan at starbucks fullerton and to clark quay and the others went home... lepak with yoz,radyn,hazi and fareed isit? hha cnt remember...

iffah i dunno where she's gone... eh babe... eur things is with me... better take ok! haha

so we went home at 3am... well actually i havent reach home until now at 8am... haiz...
waited for NR2 for freaking 1 1/2 hr... and when it came.. it was full.... grrrrrrr i was about to cry coz im alone in some drunk street... it wasnt sooo singapore to me... haiz... i juz afraid i might be screen.... but lucky met someone... cnt remember his name haha oops! after waiting together for NR2 since 330am untl we walk all the way to city hall and waited at the mrt station to open the door and it opened at 630AM! I FELT LIKE IM FREAKING REFUGEE!! haiz... all the maboks,matreps,construction worker,minah tudung,petite and wateva human beings eu cn find... haiz...

safely reach home now... and am freaking tired.... i juz feel like bursting to tears... my wish for 2009 isint complete... and now its 2010... haiz....
tc peeps muacks!

dinner

2009-12-27T13:27:00.002+08:00

tittle:dinner with cousins

wooots had dinner with malaysia cousins... they came all the way from sabah,KL,ipoh and alot more.. all the way to johor... so had dinner with them.... went with dad,mom,uncle and aunt... reach johor at 7pm... wait for the other cousins... and off to dinner

ouh b4 that.... i was embarassed by myself.. 1st impression on my johor cousin....
i went to toilet... gonna pee when i heard squicky sound... and when i look in the toilet bowl... I DIE DIE THOUGHT I SAW A SNAKE!!!! i ran out and called my dad to see.... and actually its a RAT IN THE TOILET BOWL!! ouh gawd.... its freaky ok!!! cnnt pee after that haha

so then went to dinner at L.C catering.... had alot of singaporeans customer though... the food was nice... all my malaysian cousins are rich cousins and most of them had DSLR of their own.... so i played with it.. snap alot of pics hahaha then off home ard 11pm...

haiz... im still having fever and it irrits alot! but its ok... =)
aite *poof! dissappear*

merry christmas

2009-12-26T01:07:00.002+08:00

tittle:christmas

ouh goody2 christmas at pats house today... well as we always meet up.. we were kinda an hour + late? haha so us...fahmy,rishi,wira,dann,dinie,me,filzah,brenda,nazira,annu,radyn,yoz,gayus and her bros and sis,saraz attended pat's christmas party...

was cool... 1st though haha woooo gt prezzie!! weee was sad coz i dun have a prezzie for her... well next year cn haha

so left at 7pm+... had fun laughing and enjoying and her mom cook was really special

anyway after loads of fun taking photos and enjoying and came syahirah with her guy...
we then went off...

lepak with wira and filzah though..
anyway today everyone looks gorgeous... or maybe except me... coz they say i always wear the same thing? NVM... i save money and change my wardrobe!! grrr

PS:am having fever right now... =(
nyte2 ppl!! merry christmas! muacks!

dissapointed

2009-12-23T10:44:00.002+08:00

tittle:gpa gpa gpa

after all stressfull days and almost to tears studying and persevering myself... i oni gt 0.1 grade diff then my last grade..... haiz....

i thought i've done better coz i do felt i done my best... but..... haiz.... nvm... like he says... i gt year2 and CP... but... i always wanna do well in my academics but... i tried my best already!!!

nvm... i still have another year to do better!!!! grrrrr

anyway guys.... am happy that eu guys pass ok!!!! and its goin to year end.... enjoy before 4th jan ok!!! =P

sungai buloh

2009-12-23T00:22:00.002+08:00

tittle:out for a picnic

today was such a tiring day... woke up early in the morning to cook something for the others...
fahmy,wira,rishi,me,brenda,syaf,filzah,iffah,aini,nazirah

so went off to meet naz and wira at wlds then to kranji to meet the rest... sad was filzah and iffah was late... haha
so went picnic at sungai buloh and gosh it was such a long,hot,tiring track and i swear i'll listen to wat rishi ask us to wear in the future haha...

reach our destination... rest and waited for filzah and iffah... went off to one of the platform jetty to have our picnic... woooooooo really had fun and full... but pity wira his food is spoiled... haiz...

then after picnic,continued tracking till the whole nature park... off to crocodile farm which is close.... and went on to the bus stop... which eventually starts raining with strong winds... wooo haha best lah!!!!

over all... sawww alot of MONITOR lizards eh...(komodo dragon)*whistle* haha and fishes and terrapins which we had fun time feeding and remind us of sham?huh? haha

then off to wlds to lepak... and now back home and i feel sooo uneasy and feel like scrubbing my whole back....

anyway ppl!! tomorow ok.... results!! 8am!! gd luck!!
muacks2

they're home

2009-12-19T01:51:00.004+08:00

tittle:they're home

thanks eh for the last min reminder... i seriously fergot that we had ex school gathering..

so went off to meet the ex silians to have dinner at simpang bedok.... well as always,"malay promises", we suppose to meet at 2+ and end up all gathered at 6+ goin 7.. so had dinner... and went of to grandlink for karaoke... well i miss that part since i had to go to the airport to welcome dear dann and dear radyn from myanmar... wooo

I REALLY2 MISS THEM SOOOO MUCH *tada*
dann's voice sexy now ok ahha wth

reached airport at 845pm...met fahmy at 9pm...met rishi at 10pm haha

so yeah..... went to mac to teman dann for his dinner.... then came along his brothers... wooo then had dinner.. juz to waste time to wait for the next batch flight which includes radyn in ahha sad right? haiyo

so radyn batch was like more merrier? haha and rishi came along! woooo but brenda was late...
srry hunn eu cnt make it to airport... since all of them are off back home...

miss them sooooo much ok!!! anyway lucky theres fahmy and rishi.... or i will be alone welcoming them.... most of the others had things coming up so yea.... haiz....

PS:confirm dann is updating a whole bunch of stories in his blog... haha

anyway i juz gt a dejavu in the train juz now.... and i keep having this odd feeling of meeting someone... but who?
haiz...

filzaaaaaahhhh eur being missed baby haha

so eu think ija cn dance?

2009-12-15T00:31:00.002+08:00

tittle:out to charcos!!

yea yea... anyway the top vd is ystd dance prac... was me,kiddo and filzah... sweet of her to accompany me for dance prac since i thought i'll be alone dancing haha

anyway... she dance ok!!!

song is did it again remix by shakira...

anyway today... went charcos for lunch with rishi,brenda,iffah,annu,filzah and me... weeee so long ok didnt dine in there... we enjoyed ribs,schnitzel chickens and roasted chicken... was super full ok! till now hahahopefully annu baby enjoyed her day!!! and brenda...FBT OK! haha

so went lepak after that at amk mac near this park....and played that stupid dissing game... and awww how i like one of the question and it makes me smile and sparkle till now ok!!! haha grrrrrr.. so went home ard 10pm...

anyway enjoy the vd peeps!!!

PS:counting days for my dearies to come back to singapore...am missing them...

drunkie

2009-12-13T01:18:00.002+08:00

tittle:ra ra oh lala

went out heart to heart talking and drinking with annu,filzah and wira..

annu... i noe its hard on eu... but juz let it go ok? people always makes the wrong choice and thought it was right... when doin decisions... human always have fickle minded... dunno which is the right choice to choose from....

eu juz have to believe in fate and move on.... dun care bout the scoundrel... its all over... thinking of something bitter and whining it up is no use... it makes no sense... thinking of something stupid like killing or suicidal is much more worst... no effect at all after the pleasure....

so juz ferget about him... ferget all the heartpain... ferget about how stupid of eur choice had been... theres still light at the end of the tunnel... run towards it... get out from the sorrows and darkness k?

no matter how eu fall... we will always be there for eu...

and one more thing..... DUN EVER GET DRUNK AGAIN... ugly lah eur behaviour haha i cn get scared ok ahha booooo aite3!

nyte2 ppl muacks!

myanmar

2009-12-09T21:59:00.002+08:00

tittle:next myanmar

wake up early morning feeling like p.diddy haha

aini woke me up telling she got out from the house.... so bathe and met her ard 11am..
reached t2... saw dinie... and sure they haven check in yet... met up with radyn and dann... gave them a nice tight hug... am soo missing them badly right now hahah i dunno why... do eu? i guess eu do haha

so after sending them off... me and tetek went to bk to had lunch... gotta noe that fahmy was almost otw to airport... wth... ahaha told him they flew off... so me and aini went ard crazy in airport.... oni two of us but lucky we do have something to talk about...

then off back to wlds... change... met up with wira and the gang... the girls were having dance prac... so thought of watching... in the mean time... was choreo-ing for yr2 prom night which eventually was cancelled due to some reasons... haiz...

anyway thought of goin gym but i was too tired dancing haha srry guys...

now back home... miss him and her... and am sooooo tired... gotta go peeps!
muacks!

advance and belated

2009-12-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

tittle:happy belated b'day fahmy and advance b'day iffah!!

woohoo happy 17th b'day iffah and happy 20th b'day fahmy...waaa i dun even noe how many times i've wished him ahha

well today... celebrated their b'day at town... met up with wira and fahmy in the train... then syaf,filzah,brenda,rishi,dann,dinie,ayme and iffah,annu and aini... woohooo 13 right? did i miss someone out? haha too much ey?

well catch new moon today...well it was a sweet movie... im juz jealous coz everyone had their couples to be with on a sweet movie... except for like 4 heartbrokers including me? and yea... bani and yasser came along... thanks to me for buying eu guys tix ok? hah and thanks for rish for buying us all the tix =) so total up... 15 ppl watching movie!! wooohoo

then off to dinner at cahaya... yasser and bani met up with muhaimin and dzul to play pool.... so yea... the 13 of us had dinner... met syu and wani there... but they went off soon.... so after dinner... went to ion... to this huge christmas tree where eu cn go in and take pics with beautiful lightings..cool shit ok!!! haha and there we celebrated their b;day!! weeee serious ok... its super cool!! i dunno if its sooo sweet for them...

haha well it was pleasent to see this b;day boy juz gt a gf and celebrated b;day together.... =P

went to wheelock place for eating cake and chillax... then to give up their sovunior from medan.. woohooo do eu like it guys? and yea... gave iffah this tiramisu cake for her b;day*personally*... still thinkin of wat to buy for fahmy... dun worry boy.. eu'll get it soon haha anyway their b'day cake is niceer! haha

then off to to shisha at narsin.... bani had to go off... haiz.... then the other jpa boys met us... so 16 of us had sooo much fun time and shisha.... smoke alot... eat... drink... play dissing games... and thats how we celebrated there.... =) gave sooo many ppl kisses today... and we played dare game and i had to kiss two guys on their lips... kiss a girl on her lips... caress a guys butt... grind on a guy butt... and lucky yeah thats the end aha

so now set off and here i am home weeeeee

anyway srry filzah.... i dunno why i keep being angry and i keep scolding ppl for no reasons... am i having pms? i juz dunno... i keep having bad mood... i dunno why...

ouh yea... ystd i dream.... PMS is our next CA? ouh shit... hell no ok!! haha

well i love today... but hopefully im not in bad mood always.... haiz....

i really wanted someone to be there and i wanted someone to talk to me... haiz...
anyway... bani... eu should spend time with us on ma b;day ok! next outing!!

hoho

aha tc peeps... gotta sleep!! muacks!

back from medan

2009-12-06T15:22:00.005+08:00

tittle:back from medan

WE GOT HELL OF A GOOD TIME THERE FOR 3DAES!!

well its sad that we oni have 3 days... and pathetically we dun have time to shop.... maybe like 20 mins oni?

it started off on the 1st day whereby... OUR FLIGHT HAS BEEN DELAYED! haiz...
we took off at 1035 and reached there at 11am

so we keep our bags at our designated room but the sad part is some of the rooms are not prepared yet....
so we set off to having lunch at this place... i cnt remember the name... i dunno wat wak lah the place...
then had lunch which is super filling and yummy!

then head off to carrefour for shopping... well to be exact... its for the stuff to buy for the poor people and the orphanage.....

so then at night... head off to dinner.. nearby our hotel... well... oni our clan... which is.. me,afiq,marianni,ruziela,filzah,nelly,bani and fad.... the oni yr 1 group which is super noisy,happening and the most kecoh... haha

so at 12am... went off to nelly's crib and had dinner and watching ghost movie... haha well the movie sux lah haha

some of them were off to sleep... left me,filzah and bani where we played "pakistan" with poker card... haha funny lah.. zie juz watch us playing... fad... he looks like he's having hard time sleeping

well i dun have all the photos coz i dun have a camera... haiz... anyway.. the most essential thing while we at medan.... MONEY AND CIGGARETTE.... and hell yeah their cigeratte takes like foreva to finish it up...

so on the 2nd day... went to the poor village which we witness the korban festival... the slaughter of the sheep... which i really cnt watch it but i have to... haiz.... so yea... we miggle with the poor kids... teach them how to the handwashing... it was great and fun haha

so head back to hotel... had dinner and stuff.... then at 10pm... we went to bani's room and yea... we had hell of a time there... jokes,cards,smokes,dinners,laughs and we even gt complained by the level below us that we were too noisy.... even the room at the other end told us... our voice could even be heard inside haha wth!!

well the yr 2 had a prank and they kinda gt in trouble and they ran into our room.... well why they came into our room... is becoz of afiq lah... wth.... well... before everything started... it happens with me and afiq... haha well eu guys should noe.... BOY SAKIT? haha moaning in the phone..PHONE SEX? haha

so yea... had fun in the night till like 4am... we have to sleep coz we had a long day ahead... and we'll be off to singapore in the night...

so next morning.... woke up.. back to our rooms... had breakfast... went out... went to orphanage... and to hear their stories... its saddening arh.... then head back to hotel then to airport and back to singapore!! well daddy send me,afiq,bani and nelly home haha

actually the orphanage part.... the gile clans wanted to go shopping... and so do nabilah,suzanna and some others... suzanna and mommy suddenly change path to the orphanage... haha sad sey... then left us.. the ones who wanna shop... but then we felt kinda bad... but at last... went to this mall for lunch... we hate the place and bani keep wanting to go carrefour haha its ok... i noe wat eu want... next year b'day i buy for eu ok? ahha kecian dier....

but then since its shitty... we change ways to orphanage... haiz... haha

well i like our clans of year 1 over there
afiq,marianni,zie,nelly,filzah,fad,bani and nabilah haha woohooo

elli... she looks quiet but shes ok lah haha and gayi... omg... when eu board the plane...eur scared as shit arent eu? haha now i noe how to disturb eu already haha

kk the juicy bits...
we witness someone snore like nobody's business till zie had hard time sleeping.... haha
then caught 2 person who actually slept like gt parkinson disease... and yes bani.. EU DID SNORE! i heard eu haha

kentot session..... and the best night was at bani's room... we had great time dissing each other and some people... haha we gt scabis couple,horny by digging nose,3breast girl,2 dick guy and some other dirty shit right there haha

izzudin,syaf and fahmy was there to welcome us at airport.... and fahmy... HAPPY 20TH B'DAY!!! really sweet of eu to welcome us... on eur b;day... even though its like few minutes to ending... haha "b'day hug" haha
honoured ok!!! thanks eu three to welcome us =)

it was sooo fun like i dun wanna go back to singapore and still wanna have some more time there

hopefully we'll go together again aite?hopefully in year 2... yes yes.. 10DAES TRIP!! haha

im tired... gtg peeps... muacks!

to medan!

2009-12-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

tittle:passport to indonesia

like another 3 more hourse and i have to wake up and get ready to go airport?ZzZZZz

yeap2 tomorow some of the nurses from yr1 and yr2 are goin to medan for some volunteering purposes...
something gotta do with the poor people in medan

so i try to behave and do all my best in in helping those childrens...*ceyyy*

so hell yeah theres gonna be half day shopping woohoo hha
best i guest? well its onli for 3 daes and half a night... so kinda worth it lah haha

but the yr2 is gonna be till 10 days isit? i heard it that wayy... ooo cool shit huh?

i cnt wait to go longer days overseas trip!! haha

anyway.... right when we come back... on the 9th is gonna be dann and radyns turn to myanmar for like 10 days too? i cnt remember... aww i gonna miss them!! haha

anyway peeps... i really gotta catch a sleep... 3 am to get ready... pick bani at his void deck at 430am... haiya... hopefully he's awake and ready by then! haha

aite love eu all... muacks!!

still mugging

2009-11-29T23:33:00.007+08:00

tittle: those muggers

yeah2 tomorow CN exams!! jia you!!! haha eu ppl of my clans... gt luck aite!! and to some i noe too haha

so yea... today still continuing mugging... met up with filzah and wira at wlds interchange...took bus to tamp... met up with rishi and baizurah there.... went to this CC.. study at its macdonald... haha

was ma fav spot to mug last time....

5 years i didnt come there and alot has change... so i brought them there... haha

anyway mugging was ok... we did study... but there a few hiccups and all

smoking was like THE must for us ok!!

the brain was jam...

BITCH ARH BITCH!! haha

well we went off at ard 7+ goin 8pm...

was tired studying haha need a rest now...

all the best aite ppl!!! muacks!!

anyway... 9am tomorow for ma clans... we have last min revision ok!! lets chiong!! wooohooo

*huggies*

mugging

2009-11-29T00:57:00.002+08:00

tittle:over at fahmy's crib

ok2 i wont go more details in ma blogging next time haha

anyway went over to fahmy's place... such a last min though... met rishi,filzah and wira at yishun inter at 2+
reach fahmy's house at 3+ and guess wat?

didnt study.... watch tv,ate chicken rice that his maid cooked... and the cool shit thingy is that... the living room is aircorned!! i was freezing actually...

then sham and brenda came by ard 5+ and from there we started abit studying...

well these ppls have nothing to do... play soccer games then to looking at blogs on his wide screen tv... grrr
and something juz upsets me... kinda not in the mood for a moment... my tears kept holding back... thank fer the concern guys...

ya and thanks to WIRA and FAHMY for making me scream,shout and laugh... and i kinda hurt ma back ok guys! grrr

well at least my down mood was altered away...
haiz and by lookin at a phrase from somewhere juz now.... my blood juz cnt stop boiling...

the rest of them went home... left me,filzah,wira and fahmy... so went chilling at this top of the hill... then back home...

anyway... reach home...shedah called... shes upset for some certain truth she shouldnt noe... and she found 0ut... chill aite girl... its all over already right? this things are juz unseen circumstances... ferget about it aite?
huggies..

and to baby filzah... i noe its such a hard burden on eu right now for wats goin on.... we have eur support aite? think hard and wise k baby? muacks huggies

srry i couldnt pour my feelings out... its juz that... i feel like i shouldnt too... its like a no use to pour it...
by the screaming session that those two monkeys do it to me... i feel better clearing my lungs out.. HUGS TO EU BOTH! haha

anyway... wishing the dream will come true... baby ija eu noe it right? like how sweet it was... haiz...

i kinda not in the mood then now....
hugs to all heartbrokens out there aite!
=)

i will survive...as long as eu stood by my side...
im stronger....

ystd's mug

2009-11-27T09:03:00.002+08:00

tittle:ystd's mugging

so yesterday... dann,fahmy,wira,rishi,brenda,filzah came to my house for studyin... well school ends at 10.. but they reach ma house ard 4+... so its kinda lazy to study... we did study a lil... but end up playing horror games and sharing cool shit stuff haha...

str8tening dann's hair,seeing "genuine" dick head?,playing asylum 626,giving massages to peeps... and nt studying? wth haha i need to study for goodness sake! this monday exam ok!! haiya haa

so yea... ard 6+ went dinner near ma house.... had indian food and their craving ice kachang which i dunno when will they crave again... haha... i was goin to have fever... so i cnt taste much...

then we took 912 to tekong which dann and brenda departed at interchange.... then we lepak at tekong till 10+ then went home.... 2 of them were drunk... the rest was us was concentrating in LSD thingy... which is super cool shit haha....

anyway... early morning yesterday... bp goes high and ma blood boils... i juz dunno why... it came back and i cnt stop thinking bout it.... why must it be happening on the last day? why? and its juz frustrating to think it all over again.. like i said... no matter what i will try to be there for eu if eu fall back again...

some say its no use to think about it anymore... but i juz keep worrying bout eu i dunno why...

and early morning today... i juz love my dream... eu snuggled to me and whisper me dearly... its juz wat i wanted in my whole life... its was such a sweet dream but OH MOTHER spoiled it... the dream juz snapped out! tsk! i miss him ok! haha

aite eu people... i gonna miss JN0904E again!!! haiz... gonna see eu guys again on march... wth!!!
=(

this is my confesson

2009-11-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

tittle:broken strings...

i still care for eu... i still try to be there fer eu...

the others kinda give up on eu... but i will always be there for eu...

i dun wanna see eu suffer anymore... plz... make me be there for eu? i noe it sounds stupid but i juz dun want eu to be sad anymore....

and i miss eu...more then the air that i breathe...

dusk till dawn

2009-11-25T19:07:00.003+08:00

tittle:no more nightmare

dusk juz sets in... its beautiful.. together with the song am hearing... juz uploaded there in ma playlist... news juz struck me... i dun want nightmares to continue again... its enough... i dun wanna hear sufferings anymore....

wheneva i heard or see eur name... god knows how i feel...

1stly... i felt like im such a nonsense... irritates people without knowing im actually doin so... i juz felt like im irritating and disgusting....

when i had a crush on so and so... so and so shows the bad part which actually tries to make me ferget so and so... is this how love life should start?

i juz hated my life... kept thinking why am i born this way? its suffering.... mixing reality and unreality together...

i juz felt like i gave up... gave up in everything... but i juz stand back up.... i juz started it few months ago but now.... im drop down... back down...

can i juz leave this unreality world of mine?
hopefully this is juz a huge test for me for a better day tomorow...

dance xplosion

2009-11-24T10:00:00.002+08:00

tittle:dance xplosion competition

last sunday there was a dance competition held at hougang. was late though...missed fad faction... haiz....

so met up with sheril,soraya,mukmin at bns... waited for 161 is like waiting for years... ouh gawd!! so then reached hougang at 3pm...met up ryzal there....then went to watch it.... aini and kiddo was there already... so yeah... after comp... went to popeye at tamp... had lunch there and me and kiddo proceed to yck cc for a casual dance prac...

nad called me and she tagged along...met up at tamp..

so reached studio.... dance a lil but i had to finish up ma pbl project... such a bore... haiz.... today's the submission date and we still gt loads of things haven done yet....haiz

k ppl... lets done it and get over it!!!

booohoooo!!!!
=(

back to basic

2009-11-23T12:07:00.002+08:00

tittle: back like i use to

i dun wanna be annoyin,bitch,loud,suffering from unreality,nosey

i will juz keep questions to maself..
i dun wanna hurt people with ma annoying qustions

I'M SORRY

its all in the game

2009-11-22T00:21:00.003+08:00

tittle:It's all in the game

so juz now.. met aishah at bns ard 2:30pm.... waited for filzah and iffah till 330 ok! haha
so had lunch at kfc.. then filzah met wira and me and iffah and aishah proceed to library to do our project...

guess wat? was super full eh library.... so took one corner... do for a while... then aishah had to go and hafizah came.. so he bf take us a lift to nazirah house.... then we continue from there.... ard 7+ cooked dinner from nazirah kitchen haha then ghost story session with her father.. haha wth was cool stuff lah the videos and pictures he got.... woohooo sooo real... these type evidence for paranormal activities haha

so then after the session... ard 9+... went lepak except naz and hafizah.... so me,iffah,filzah and wira...

so tada iffah ask us to play truth or dare.. wth!!so we played the game and the more truth and dare... the scarier it is.... so yea... we dare unbelievable stuff... haha and all in our "1st time checklist" is all full haha too bad iffah had to go early since jibs jibs arrive.... haha but the dare after she went home was worst.... theres even a dare which make me remember of ma ex date and stuff... haiz..

PS:its all about the game girl... be strong... eu cn fight it... eu cn win him back... i have faith in eu!

so yea... went home at 11+ and now am fully tired haha.. gotta take a rest... muacks eu all... love2!!

terrified

2009-11-21T12:42:00.003+08:00

tittle:trigger

few months has past.... and another month came for our studies and in a weeks time... exams... then back to attachment

but that month felt like a year and i dun wanna loose this precious time...

back in campus... i juz felt different atmosphere goin on... its juz not different like it used to last time when i first start schooling.... conflicts,changing of personality,bitches,heartbroken and more unpleasent stuff was felt..

is 2009 that bad? coz since 2009 came and come to an end... disasters all over the world... couples having heartbreaking moments.... people who are lost in love life... death and stuff... if it is the bad year... we should welcome 2010 and prayed it to be a good all year round... with more joy and happines...

anyway.... i used to have a wish... a wish to try to ferget impossible things that i wish to have... but it seems like... the wish is not strong... im collasping into the darkness again... to some of people... its easy to say to ferget everything and look into the bright sight... but then again... we,the one whose experiencing all the pain... is suffering to look to the bright side... its like opening our eyes from the pitch black to the brightest bright places.. its hard to focus and get used to it...

secrets... secrets are meant to be kept... but sometimes eu had to let out secrets in order to reduce the problems eu have....but sometimes there are certain tiny secrets that are supposely to be kept and its sooo hard to juz let it out....

i still have a deep dark secret... and no one should knew about it except maybe one or two of eu knew about it....

i had a dream ystd... it do make a sense... but then to come again... the creater create me this way.... and expect his creations to change and mend their ways.... its not as simple as it seems... eu noe.. it takes years and full hard courage to change one person....... changing is not simple... its not simple when eu are born that way... eu didnt decide to be that way... they say... god made the decision and its fated when it happens... well is all the sins that human mades a fate from god too? i dunno... im not tryin to say i dun believe in religion... i do and even my parents are religious... and i believe and love my religion... but its juz that... i have thoughts... thoughts of why am i living in this world... where theres full of hypocrites,stereotypes and hatreds....

why cnt the world be an open minded place? why must there be taboo among the community?

and as for now... im juz tooo upset with myself.. i juz kept thinking why am i born this way...

someone's right... i am keeping things in my heart... and its hard to let it out... its juz hard to blurt everthing out.... its not because of mood or time... its juz that... eur confuse of wat to say... and which one eur about to say... fickle minds... haiz...

anyway... pray hard that i cry and blurt things out... its tooo much already...
i cnt even cry my problems out haiz...

soccer mathc

2009-11-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

tittle:dirt on boots

so yea... today... after school.. followed the nursing soccer members to watch their friendly match at sembawang haha... was raining heavily so it was a super cooling dae in singapore haha..

wore white to support somebody haha grrr but that person doesnt really talk to me today.. hmph!!

anyway... at sembawang.. filzah was bz becoming the photographer... me and dinie... dann's brother... lepak at the void deck opposite and to take care some of their stuff haha

was fun lepak with dinie... sooo much things to tell haha...PS:how dare eu ferget that i was there when the buke puase outing... hmph! i was the most noisiest and the one who treat boiled cockles haha

then they finished soccer at 7pm... so after their match... lepak with wira,naz and filzah at tekong for a while and then home... am suuupppeeerrr tired... gotta crash now! tata peeps nyte2 tc!!! haa
muacks

out to movie

2009-11-18T23:46:00.003+08:00

tittle:out for a last min movie

srry guys but i have to make this short and sweet... i gt last min research im not done yet!! =S

so yea.... today school end was super early!! ard 9:20 am? haha cool shit huh? after breakfast we all went home....

naz,wira,rishi,filzah and brenda wanted a plan... so i planned out last min to watch 2012 together haha

met up naz under ma block.. her father drove us to bns... thought of waiting for wira but end up we went 1st.. anyway bump into aini and sheril woohoo.. kiddo gt performance this sunday!!! haha

then went to somerset to meet the rest... wira came later...

went to cathay cineleisure to watch 2012... it was cool... kinda 7/10 for a movie but the ending wasnt really cool.... but yea... it open our minds! haha

3HRS OF SEATING AND MY BUTT HURTS!! haha
tomorow gym-ing!!(random)

anyway we went home seperately.. as for me,naz and wira.. her dad send us home from yishun.... awwww... now at home.. stuck her to lappy... gotta do research!! im dead if i do not done it haha

anyway ystd... went study after skool... was kinda a good payoff as i could do my paper today haha but srry rishi for making eu accompany me back to locker alot of times since i kept forgetting things and filzah too for accompanying me to locker even though eur scared... it was like wat? goin 9pm right? haha

and i was down ystd so yea.. srry for ma mood.. but thanks for the hugs eu two! haha i love being hug haha felt a sense of being there haha

k lah peeps.. gtg work... update soon aite!
muacks!

projects

2009-11-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

tittle:last min project

haiz today school... since morning till 3pm... we kept doing our projects... finishing up our PM project which is DUE tomorow and have to present... haiz.. stress ok!! have to last min research and doing reports... and then we didnt even have the time to do PBL project.. tsk!

well i finish up ma report while having dinner after skool at cafe 1... so we had japanese dinner and stuff... and finishing up projects... then we went home..

PS:brenda... dun be sad2 k? wats past is past... dun let it remind eu back aite? =)

clans!! tomorow study group after skool k?? woohoo maybe couldnt come down to bella's dance prac... haiz...

anyway went home with bani today...
PS: bani... if eu have anything to share juz tell me k? im always ready to be a listening ear..=)

k lah peeps... tc... nyte2 aite?
huggies

parsnorms acts

2009-11-15T00:27:00.002+08:00

tittle:at the movies

well ystd... WOOHOO WATCH PARANORMAL ACTIVITES... at wlds... last min plan... but the bad news was that... WE HAD TO LINE UP IN A SUPER LONG QUEUE SINCE MOST WATCH 2012 THEN GT THE TICKETS AND THE MOVIE WAS BORING... SUX LAH DEY!!

upon rating....3/10

haiz

well the movie was like someone record using hp... which is super boring in the day... the night was great... since eu cn hear foot steps... see moving things.. see things and hear noises... but was super boring... i swear i had a bad headache watching the cameraman moving non stop and i swear i wanna vomit.. felt like i was drunk... i slept when the boring part came

but the best was the last part where she gt possesed... i cnt say much lah... eu guys go watch eurself and eu'll noe haa

then at nyte... went to drinking with the usual peeps since its bella's b;day woohoo!! happy 18th b;day haha

theres a dance group there and i teach some stuff too haha sempat eh? well... they need help though... haha

then today!! went dance prac with rogue at rp... the voguelicious was there... ALOT OF THEM dancing... i mean like alot of group... was super bored since the voguelicious had to go so left me and rogue choreo some steps then back to staring at lappy haha

then filzah.wan parkour and wiwi came... so rogue went home and i went lepak with them... had dinner with them... then now reach home... woohoo... am sooo super tired...

"dah best2 tinggal kan aku" haha siak arh

kk tc peeps! muacks!!

depression

2009-11-12T20:49:00.002+08:00

tittle:head spin

so today we started to do the PBL project and seriously..nothing gets into ma head!! grr hopefully things gonna turn good soon haha

skool was normal...ends at 11+ juz now..so then went to cafe 1.. and wth!! full house.. till ma contact lense wanna tear... too much watching haha

so we all decided to eat at food culture at century square... wth 10 of us... then juz now ate young tau foo... which i really miss it since i finish attachment haha... but the 1st bite was such a present.... the egg slipped out from ma spoon right to ma uniform then to yusri's uniform... dirty already... then yusri accidentally fell his tempe with blachan at ma pants... grrrrr double trouble!! but then lucky i bought extra shirt and pants... so i changed!! yeayness!! ahaha

so then all of them went home... left me,ayme,radyn,dann,iffah and yusri to tamp library to do our PM project... well we did do some work... radyn and yusri had to go early.. the rest of us was sent home by ayme's bf at ard 5+ hahah tada!! reach home... went to cut my hair.. and yea! a new look? wth haha

PS:dun get upset k? slowly time will heal and tell.. dun worry =)

muacks!

ghost hunting

2009-11-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

tittle:out searching

yesterday... was having moodswings... im srry dann for being angry at eu at lunchtime...
i dunno why im having moodswings... isit the part where the sambal drop on ma shoes? or isit my mother who spit out the secrets... which is telling ma dad im goin ghost hunting at nite later on... or isit my grandma whose telling us that she kept dreaming of the dead souls coming back at her and asking to take her for a walk... kinda like a sign for her to go... i dun want it to happen!! haiz...

anyway ystd after skool..went back home.. at 9pm... met aini,filzah,wira and annu at admiralty.... met nazirah and her dad... brought us to sembawang where we then met yusri and fahmy... mampose!! the van very "big" i tell eu... until we had to squeeze our butt sooo much for some space!! haha

drop at senoko for a while for naz dad to run his errand... then out to bishan to pick up brenda,rishi and dann.... omg... now the space is worst!!!

went to rifle range there for the 1st hunting and i swear i really saw,hear and feel something.... reach there ard almost 11pm.... then went in.... but while walking in... onli me and nazirah heard a girl laughter...then turn to scream... its kinda like a few metres away.... the others dun hear it... i dunno lah... while we entered deeper... i saw something at the tree,signboard and this dark area.... i saw something nearing us and i heard something... its really that freaky and i cnt tahan already... but maybe i brought this small muslim bible(yassin)..maybe that help to keep things away from us.... well..i did prayed something for the things not to disturb us....

well on our way out... i really saw something freaks me out... 2 small red eyes actually peeped out and got in back into the woods... and i swear there wasnt anyone else...or cars.. or why must a car be in there when we are in the woods? haiyo!

anyway after that... went to singapore quarry.... well the scary things is oni that... the part where naz dad had to put up the barrier for the car to go in further... it was kinda up a slope and he forgot to brake it... and guess waT? the van slowly go backwards!!! it was super scary!! fahmy did pull the handbrake but forgot to stop it with the accelerator! bagus!! lucky we knock on the door and her father mad in time to stop the van... or not we become the ghost! haha

so went in to the quarry and guess wat? ITS NOT SCARY BUT THE PLACE IS AWFULLY B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!!! i juz kinda really in love with the scenery!!!

and yea brenda! its a wish come true!! eu made it back there!! haha

so then after that... her dad brought us to jln kayu/seletar there...
where we go in ard and to piccadily road... and to this old abondoned... i dunno houses or barracks or bunks? i dunno... but it sure looks scary! and to make it more good effect.. it was dense fog since its actually 2am!! but then we got bored... went to this road... the devils den or wat? i dunno lah... yck there... and sure the place looks scary... everywhere is scary... i dunno how naz father survive working... where he got to go all scary roads... haiz... so yea... their project not really succesfull but we do feel chills and stuff... out own experience

and theres this photo which me,naz,annu and brenda i guess... saw something peeping from the tree.. where the others didnt and when i look through again... the thing was missing from the pic? how scary! grrr

anyway... at 315am... we're at matilda house!! well we cnt get in since its too early in the morning and us was tired and the house was far inside and its all muddy!

overall... we had great fun! we sang too loud in the van juz to keep things fun haha

so then send them all home... accompany the ladies back and then us back and damn fahmy! eur super heavy till ma feets gt cramp! haha anyway... reached home at 6am... bathe and went to sleep!

woke up at 2pm... went bathe and dinner with shedah since shes actually down my block! haiyo! gila lah she haha

went dinner at macdonalds near ma place... then to deserts at tpy swensens with normi!! i miss them!! had deserts! then went back home!! now im awfully tired!!

gotta sleep! tc ppl! nytes² muacks!
*huggies*

ghost seeking

2009-11-04T10:29:00.002+08:00

tittle:ghost hunting?

well... now im in skool... doin project... AND ITS NOT EVEN STARTED YET! except for some resources i gt from the net....

haiz... im feeling tired and sleepy... ate my black pepper chicken rice dumpling.. YUM²!! haha

well ystd had sooo much fun on SNW... teacher ask if we wanna do gymnastic and she got us the trampoline!! woohoo

had so much bouncing!! soo much fun!! haha i feel like doin it again... had the feeling of flying without wings ok!!! the best was the three sugars... iffah,radyn and filzah... haha we force them to be on the trampoline and dared them to jump!!! haha

anyway after skool... went to ktm railway..the malayan railway track... reach clementi ard 7+... met fahmy there.. then we went to the railway... reached ard 8... haiz... too bad radyn,iffah,dann and ayme cnt follow... haiz.. sad sey..

the peeps were
wira,rishi,fahmy,yusri,me,aini,filzah,annu,brenda and nazirah... cool shit huh? haha

so went there...nazirah's hp caught a spirit re-enacting a falling death which is soooo super clear...
yusri camera..i spot a little girl staring and it blended on a tree... eu gotta focus on it though..
and some other things...orbs were seen... and its a clear one.. not the dust orb...

well was kinda successfull but the strange thing is that... we all heard theres train coming on the way but theres no freaking train at all... phantom train isit? haha

so some of us was moody...moodless... and upset... haiz... we all feel eu aini... be strong k? and some of us lost the mood.... anyway... after the searching and hunting...went to mac at that kings albert park there... THE MAC WAS SUPER HUGE OK! haha... there we had dinner and went home...

anyway brenda haha its a random thing brenda!! im not on purpose... im not a bad person lah!!! im not into girls! tada!! haha

so then... i reached home.. but the strangest thing is that... i dun feel anything and slept well

anyway today morning... went skool with the normal peeps with extra person... IFFAH!! woohoo best ok!! haha

PS:im freaking waiting for my lappy!! where the fcuk isit?!?!?!?! grrr

he's gone

2009-11-02T22:30:00.002+08:00

tittle:life is short...

now i really understand that life is short.... no matter who eu are.... he's ma age... remembers how he used to disturb how soft i am... but its ok... we skool mate... and now he's gone...

due to some reasons of wat he had done... haiz...
well its fated to be that way for him... its such a sorrowfull dae juz now..

may allah take his soul and bless him and forgive all his wrong deeds... amin...

we,the siling students and ex siling students and staff and all other frens of eurs and even families will always miss eu hafiz...

haiz...

anyway.. skool was normal... i went out of skool early to be at hafiz funeral... reach his place ard 11+... but his body came too late... i had to rush back to skool by 3pm... at least i met all my ex classmates and frens...... haiz... its a sad thing to hear about hafiz lah... haiz..

innalilah wa'innalilah rohjiun

anyway... back to skool... lecture was fun and great.... after skool... had dinner... then ate some brownies... since one of our CA is having her last day today... haiz... we dearly miss her...
anyway... gave bani his presents... haha hopefully he really likes it ahha

and and and... get well soon dear filzah and fahmy k? haiz..

tcc peeps! muacks!

paranormal activites

2009-11-01T14:07:00.002+08:00

tittle:jenny

so ystd was the phase test... I PASS.. but i gt alot of careless mistakes wth!!!!!

ystd's phrase of the day... "STOP BEING CHILDISH!!!!" "DUN TRY TO BE A GENTLEMAN HERE" wth???

anyway ystd after phase test... the clan went to have lunch at popeye at century square.... had fun there... then ate alot... the workers name had the same name in our clan... which is... ANU*without the extra N* and AZHAR.. which is me? wth! but im cuter! haha

then after that... went to watch jennifer's body...

haha was cool lah but seriously... FREAKING LAME!!! to my point of view... 5/10..
i noe guys says shes fuckin hot... even ma girlfrens... but i dun find her hot.. except her seducing eyes that is.... maybe they're juz plain blind or maybe despo for girls... WTH? haiz....

and a lesbian kissing scence ystd? made ma day... haha eu noe why? TOO BAD GUYS!!! SHE KISSED A GIRL AND SHE LIKES IT... WITH TOUNGES!!! haha
i noe its normal for a girl to kiss girl... better still when their high... but to close minded guys... too bad! haha

so after watching movie... met BAIZURAH BRENDA LIM LI PIN haha then went off to changi village.... met fahmy and yusri there.... weeeeee

but then... they all went off to och... filzah and me had a reason that we cnt go to such places... haiz... i wish i could follow....

so i decided to open vodka ystd.... and sham brought sprite and coke... AND NO ICE? WTH?
so went drinking... shared the 4 of us... i blanje ok! say thanks plz? haha

but i did when to buy ice later at the beach... THANK GOD! haha and bump into one cute guy ahha ooooo

then this two lovebirds had to go... left filzah and me alone.... haha gt mushy moments where me and filzah kinda dun wanna watch haha like we both acted PG there haha

so then when their gone.. me and filzah juz wanna start drinking... suddenly gt a makcik came... with her two daughters where filzah says their hot and cute? haha maybe i should agree a lil haha

but the fact that we had to hide the vodka oi! kinda funny haha

then we shifted to a bbq pit where nobody was using it... then me and filzah started to pour out stuff.... i 1st started drinkin a lil... but end up alot when i slowly pour out ma feelings... im juz tipsy not drunk.... i was tipsy+moody so it kinda looks drunk haha

i wanna pour out more... but privacy was close when the rest return from their paranormal investigations at OCH which i dunno see any ghost in the photos and stuff... BOOOORRRRINNNGGG

anyway... i was worried for them since it was gonna thunderstorm when they enter.. but i didnt sense any danger... so thank god for them.... =) i was worried for eu guys eu noe!! luckily ma pray for them for the rain to stop was accepted... haha it didnt rain... except for drizzles then when we went home.. was fine.. but wlds was having thunderstorm... which it stopped... haiz

haiz but it was fine ystd... it was super cooling with the strong cold breeze at the sea.. haiz.... i felt like wanna do a one night there... but i was too tired...

reached home at 1am ystd..... btw my intuition was right!!

today... gt a news.... my ex sec skool mate juz passed away haiz... i did have a feeling someone was goin away.. so it was him... haiz... we dearly miss him... pray for the best for him... haiz...

PS:i wanted to share more to bby filzah but i cnt pour it out ystd... i really need a hug thats y i keep eu hugging eu deary haiya....

rishi.... i am not myself ystd... i dunno but something juz bothers me alot lah... haiz...

but the most fun event was....BEING BITTEN BY ANTS AT THE BUSTOP... alot of ants.. eeeee haha

k lah... i cnt remember anything else now... i guess i wanna stop here haha
tc dearies readers... MUACKS! tata tc!!!

too much

2009-10-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

tittle:slow down

baby filzaaahh... cheer up k? we always be there for eu dearie!! *hugs,muacks*
thanks for makin me melata and slapping ppl haha

and yea... brenda gt a malay name... BAIZURAH haha cn or not arh? nice tak? haha
and omg.... an accident happen.... lips touch lips... eee disgusting!! ee pui pui pui!!!! eeee hopefully tomorow everyone forgot the incident!!

anyway nadia played soccer juz now... run with her pantat jek lebih ahha... jersey orange? LIKE HEY!! EUR FAV COLOUR! I MISS EU GILE!! haha

and yea... still waiting for my salary and lappy... haiya...
dann's spec make me look hot... CEYYYYY haha cam paham!!!!

anyway... now my fav thing to do is kissing and hugging! eu girlfrens noe it!! ahha moist lips ey? ahha

MUACKS MUACKS haha

dun trust me

2009-10-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

tittle:i cnt be bothered

haiya!!!! waiting for ma parents to come back... still not reaching home yet! wth!!!! grrrr
i need their copies of i/c's and cpf's for the opportunity fund to get a lappy...

and when i bought it... it'll soon be me in ma own world... heck care for ma brother whose gonna use this dusty desky... after all... he's conquering it...

anyway... supposely we were to study today.. but end up gossiping.. went home at 6+... reached home at 8+... skool life isint the same without the full clan... wth is with ayme and iffah... haiya... haha

anyway... GOODBYE.... a random say for a random post? maybe?
maybe i should delete ma blog and start afresh? or not to blog after all...

since i've been doin wrong posting in here... and ALOT OF IT.... or maybe a new chapter... let all the past tense juz be past tense... starting from now... a new things with new life in this blog... no more the old past? maybe i should.... i know im in the wrong... im srry... in anyway im hurting anyone.... coz if eu all dun realise... NUR AZHAR HAS A HUGE EGO... or maybe juz idiot... i carried those feelings till leading stoopid unreasonable behaviour....

i should be the old me back..... the one who doesnt care about the world...

coming back

2009-10-23T23:10:00.003+08:00

tittle:nothing else

today... i dunno why i go hyper during team building haha... maybe thanks to redbull? haha
well teambuilding was fun... gt crazy while we doin paper tower... haha certain ppl will noe haha oops! srry yer for ma craziness... till iffah is scared of me haha

lately... my mood is soo out of hand... the minute im happy the next was crazy and suddenly turn moody to sad.... haiz.. when i think of it... im frustrated and i juz feel like shouting... but it cnt be done... its useless thinking of it

is ma past hitting me back? i dun wan to... i agree with filzah.. this year is such a bad year... with all stupid things goin on... with all the worst things we could have imagine tripped us... haiz... wat we doesnt want.. actually came... why? its hurting! why must our life trippin this year? haiz... hopefully 2010 is all the good sweet stuff... haiz...

its been 4months pass... and i felt a total difference...things changed... totally.. like who doesnt agree with it... every term... things change... haiz... for the good... better... bad or worst... haiz...
for me... its bad to worst... ever since 2005 but the oni good things i treasure was frens... but hopefully by next year.. it'll change... change to a new start... a good thing... a special person to be there for me?

thinkin bout the past juz hurts me and hearing more shocking news hits me more and unimaginable... i juz wish it didnt started out... i wanted to change the past... but its too late... now im stuck... stuck in the present......haiz

filzah 21st b'day

2009-10-22T20:19:00.003+08:00

tittle: happy 21st darling!!

yea yea yesterday was her 21st birthday!! our dear SITI FILZAH BTE RAHIM!!!!
so actually we told her we wanna go study at popeye terminal 3 there... so after skool... went change... then went over there....

bought her last min... a bottle of jelly beans!! haha then we act as if we're having study group.. alot of us... 12 of us... the whole clan!! haha and some other ppl... so yea.... but the biggest surprise was aina... holding the cake and us wishing her loudly at popeye... such an attention seeker haha

its was such a good surprise that she actually burst into tears haha... we love eu always siti filzah haa

the one who came down and celebrate is much appreciated..
iffah,me,ayme,dann,aina,annu,yusri,aini,radyn,kay,rishi,brenda haha

so then we departed.... me,dann,rishi,aina,annu,iffah,ayme and dear filzah bored the train toward jookoon.... but we seperated.... haha we open the presents... and it was such a fun thing haha... and rishi start the irritating screech thingy haha eeeeeeee wanna me see scratch like one crazy pontianak isit? haha then gt this guy.. SOOO SUPER CUTE... but like funny lah... he listen to songs soooo loud and even sing along silently with it... haha but he's such a cutie... me iffah and ayme dun mind at all haha awwwww

then me,aina,annu and filzah drop by vivo to drink.... and guess wat? i gt drunk!! omg.. its becoz of a topic which made me real upset.. i juz cnt imagine it... its unthinkable... haiz... i drank till drunk then lucky adi send me and aina home... i love eu aina... haha imy sooo much!! haha

so i was sent home... gt home... vomit ma hearts out... bathe and slept... and back to skool... hangover... baek arh.. smue muke stoink haha me,filzah,annu the sexiest stoink bitcher haha

2nd part...

haiz.... its obviously its such a big change now... he's different then before... he reflects was i think of him the 1st day i noe him.... and we always argue... i dunno why we argue... but maybe isit my karma? i always being sarcastic... and isit this time... i getting it back by someone... so surprisingly? im tired to think of it anymore.... i've had enough of being drunk coz of keep thinking wat will happen next to him... but its getting no use... haiz... the things that i dun expect him to do... he's doin it... haiz... i dunno lah.... im juz too tired.... maybe i juz try to forget everything...

deepavali

2009-10-18T23:00:00.003+08:00

tittle:happy deepavali..

well yesterday.... went deepavali to rishi's house... srry im late... coz i was damn tired from dance prac yesternite... and stuck at sengkang and went home late in the morning..

not enough sleep i tell eu...

so met filzah,nazirah and wira at bns... went off to novena... bought old pollar cake for dearest sweet 18th birthday brenda... which we guys will pay back to nazirah tomorow k? DEY! haha

went to rishi house... haha 1st time goin deepavali.. was super uberly excited.... aha the food was nice! nasi minyak with curry kambing,ayam masak merah... and this pineapple with onions and cillies and vinigratte them... yummy! but i was on diet... so i took a little... went in to rishi room... waaa

smoking+bitchin+phototaking+drinking and celebrating port in there... which actually surprise brenda and she almost gt into tears of joy... omg!! haha happy birthday dear girl! haha

we force her to drink a little of carlsberg since its her 18th birthday ahha srry lah for always promptin up.... i drank a little since i hate beer... urgh! haha and was kinda disappointed in a moment... then we slack till sham and his gf came... talk more... bitch more... was superfun... the best was the MJ joke haha... oops nazirah!! ahha

after deevali-ing in rishi's house... we departed.... let me and filzah... went to ion orchard... walk around... then to far east... and waited for jas... then went dinner at subway... then went slacking at borders... haha

siak arh!! we suddenly open up ghost encounters topic... and we start talking for almost 2 hours... and filzah gt really scared... sadly jas had to send her back haha

went back at 10+ then i reach home... was super tired and didnt get to online and chat with ma dearie filzah.. nvm... monday we talk more k? ahha

PS:im currently really dissapointed in this particular person... he changed... totally... i dun like the new him... i want the old him back... haiz..

ppl change...

new kwats

2009-10-18T22:28:00.002+08:00

tittle:deeparaya performance...

currently enjoying watermelons!!! its such a wonder after a hot dae... and juz gt back from ma dance performance for deeparaya at yck cc

ok the event was boring... dangdut here and there... then the aunties uncles of all races... karaoke... then performances... all the senior² ppl... all like 40+ like that... then the youngest was the malay dancers... and us... THE MOST SPECTACULAR GROUP OF THE DAE!! yea!! ahha ceyyy but to be truth it is... we outstand the whole event haha... but crowds was boring... haiz...

met ain at yck mrt at 2+ then proceed to dance... then yan came at 2+goin 3... dance till we drop... make up at 6+.. went off to the event at 7+pm.. perform...

well rogue was there... yan was dropping to pieces.. was funny looking at his reaction... supposely theres nothing bad goin on haha

then went perform then tada!!! was great... although they fergot steps... but rogue commented us... and i heard it... was wonders... i was BLUSHED! since she says the choreography is good!! cey cey.. azhar cn choreo seyyyy but need to improve more better haha to be doper... to be in competitions and upgrade our group....

now my wishlist is to have a new contact lense... its super irritable now!! grr

anyway... juz now.. after performance.. saw these two kwats and a girl... eeewwww seriously!! i've got to bitch about them... its a must...

well eu see... kwats... they intend to be thin.... then critics all those ppl who're fat... like saying that thin is the in thing and if eu gotta be kwat... eu gotta be thin... LIKE WTF!! saw me... walk ard get to to near me... juz to walk past and bitch loudly saying that im fat... well hello!!! if eur a true kwat... and eu hate the fatties... come tell me face to face... and see whose face will turn red... and wat? seriously... look eurself in the mirror... the girl.. like total mina-rep wearing... with like wat? tights and those stupid thin sweater... which eur PMS smells like a dead rat stuck in eu for ages.... and that two kwats... ok i cn saw one look presentable... but eu dissed me? well how bout.. eur thin... eu dun have a butt... eur a freaking btm and eu look like a stick... one kick or one blow... eu'll be off to the next town... and the other kwat? plz... baggy shirts and jeans... with specs... then walk and act so kwat... like as if ppl wants to get to noe eu... srry... eur thin... YES EUR THIN... BUT FUGLY... eeww!! eu two kwats are juz dumb! look like 15years old or somethin? ouh ya.. fergot... YP's!!(young people) juz developed up to be a kwat... and starting curiously to be in the gay world.... srry... sit there... study properly.... get eurself in tertiary level... get more experience in the outside world... then eu cn bitch about me k? i bet if i ask the other kwats to join me and to ask if they noe eu.. they wouldnt... coz eur juz plain stupid... ouh yar... juz wishing eu two dumb kwats... WELCOME!

if eu dun bitch about me... if eu were to praise bout ma dance... i gladly praise eu back nicely but since eu saw how kwat i was when i dance... srry... thats vogueing if eu wanna noe... not like eu guys... once i on vogue element songs... ask eu to dance.. the oni thing eu noe is shaking eur booty thats all... srry... think twice ok... dun try to bitch bout me girl... coz eur head will be right down being stepped with ma foot.... if eu cn prove me wrong... come... show me and prove me that im wrong.... nabuey... srry eh... muke mcm taik... balik cebok tu muke.... jumpe... bebual depan k faggots? tc k?

haiz... new kwats nowadays... think that they own and recognise by many... i gladly accept new kwats as ma frens.. if they appreciate others... not like those guys... who thinks they sooo popular... bullshit..

1,2,3

2009-10-14T20:25:00.002+08:00

tittle:back to campus

*POOF!* (dust scatters)

ouh gawd... i didnt upload for soooo loongg!!!
well practically im back to campus!!! omg i missing skool life!! haha

-well skool time was kinda relax for this module... THANK GOD!!

-things have changed.... im lost always.... haiz....

-anyway... i gt rashes on ma hand and it swells... grrr!!!! i hate ma bangle...
salary is still not in.. i feel like smacking for that person who didnt upload our salary in...

-i have things to buy but the salary not in yet...

-saving money to go brisbane with frens next year...!! weeeee
and tada!!! plz plz... class chalet this december!!!
and for the party for the december babies!!

and i gt deeparaya dance performance and the choreo not really complete and didnt even remixed... and i hate the venue performance.... i hate the crowds i gt no freaking young ppl to watch... all aunties and uncles... like wat do they understand our concept... they juz want entertainment.. wth haha

k i gotta go... i have to sleep... my head hurts... my eyes are almost tearing... i dunno why... i feel confuse all of a sudden... haiz

1st time raye!

2009-10-01T00:47:00.003+08:00

tittle:1st time raye!

yea yea!!! for the 1st time! raye witht the nursing mates! yea!!! am sooo freaking happy!
well since ystd went raye with the sec 5.. which is kinda kecoh... and met shedah,normi at kak gal house... and came home at 3am and slept at 4am... supposely meet naz and ika dimple and bns at 10... I WOKE UP AT 11AM! shit!

so woke up and get ready!! lucky ika dimple was late too!! so got ready.. went to interchange and wait for her... ahha and suddenly gt inside joke about batteries haha

so then reached ainni house at ard 1+... met them there... then continue raye to filzah's house!!! yea! eur house and the area is cool ok!! grrrr haha should go down there someday! ahha then went to atikah johari house!! well we travel from lakeside to clementi then to pasri ris... then ard bedok.. which is sham,radyn and ardillah.... well naz had to go off by then... then last... my house... ahyelah!! haha

well we ate at ainni house... then at radyn and my house best eh... PIZZA! haha yea!! since theres no food at ma house... tada! special treat from azhar! haha.. well today raye was super fun! cnt wait to karaoke on the 7th! woohoo!!! haha

and today! i gt cool partners!

iffah=laugh and wink partner!
amy=couple of the dae
radyn=giggle partner
filzah=eating partner
ika dimple=battery partner

haha ouh gawd! all were enjoying... is juz that i pity dinie...*dann's brother* he looks soooo quiet... haiz... should talk alot soon! haha

kk tc peeps! need ma beauty sleep! tada! ahha
MUACKS!

mysterious raye

2009-09-29T13:04:00.002+08:00

tittle:out to raye!

OUH SNAP!!! i goin out raye soon.. but my house is the 1st house... but i have NO IDEA who the hell will come.. all i noe is aini? grrr aha

i wanted to follow azmick all but too bad... today we're raye-ing! next time aite ppl! haha
i will get to noe whose on raye when they come to ma house later-on

ouh yea for the last post... i fergot to include this...
on the way to interchange... to ma dance performance... was inside the bus...then this cute guy board on the bus... he looks familiar... well... he's actually my skoolmate.... and he actually randomly talk to me... actually i noe he wanted to talk but i just act like i dunno... coz i cn see his reaction by the reflection of ma shades... when the bus hits the interchange... he turn and talk to me... haha 1st question was....

NICE SHADES!

haha awwwww then we started talking..... haha random right this cute guy? i cnt remember his name.. grrrr hha well... i had to rush though... hopefully meet him soon haah

phobia

2009-09-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

tittle:sucky performance

yea yea... very sucky haha... woke up at 8am.. gt a bad feeling so i woke up at 11... gt to noe that oni me and kat perform.... WTH!!! kat phone was spoiled... so she updated me at 12+... rush to do a bit of thing... went to yck to meet her... prac abit... then put on a show... with such stupidity.. well.. the show must go on ahha

so waited for rogue to came...but while waiting.. the CC actually on this cute show... name BOLT haha... then we went to sign up for the passion card thingy and gt free movie tickets when rogue came.....

continue watching that cute movie till end then went to BB's open house... KAT! AKU CAIR! haha

eu noe i noe lah..... so after bb's house... went to watch phobia 2 which is at junction8... since the free tix is oni at GV and the nearest is there... which we rush from BB's house... to amk... to there haha and made it in time!! wooohoo!!

kk phobia 2 its ok... meaningfull... but the oni thing that freaks me is the images,make-ups and stuff...haha.... should watch lah... had crush on 3 actors though haha

then went home... abit scared though ahha
PS:eur story of otw back to home rogue... IS SUPER FREAKING FUNNY!! aha

sooooo today... went raye to johor with ma parents... am super tired now! haha
i kinda washed ma eyes too much at johor just now... i feel like stickin maself at the custom haha eu noe i noe!weee haha

kk tata peeps tc! muacks!

out

2009-09-25T00:18:00.002+08:00

tittle:dah lame tk jumpe lah kan

haha its been SOOOO SUPER LONG didnt go out with soraya and tada... last min plan... went to jurong point haha

since i wanna buy facial wash at fancl... thought of goin bugis but am super lazy... so went jurong... haha

its been a while since i step into jurong point and things are changed... the mall was extended... new shops... am super tired haha walking all the way to find fancl... bought the facial wash.... since we're killing time... the consultant gave free facial consulting haha... now i noe how skins layers are... soo much for reading tabbner oni haha... and saw something disturbing till i wish more peeps werent with me haha.... btw... the service there was super awesome... haha should praise the shop... CEYYYYY if oni i were one big...DIVA haha*im a diva im a im a diva* haha

so went to fish&co for lunch.. never been there b4.. 1st time eating it.. infact.. BOTH OF US haha how stupid haha i noe.... was kinda nice lah.... i really like wat i ate juz now.... haha then went on continueing.... conquer the whole mall... bought youghurt... then went lepak at this pondok at the opposite block haha... and at 8+.. went home... now here... bored... BOREDOM haha

say i gonna kpo² later... calling azmick haha
tc peeps! nite²
muacks!

raye raye

2009-09-21T23:27:00.003+08:00

tittle:raye²

waaaa raye 2nd day already? and i thought today was the 1st day haha

so yea ppl... its raye already.... i've fully fast for a month and never fall into devils trap haha

so the 1st day raye... actually i dun feel like theres raye... i dunno why haiz... anyway... morning..went to mosque for hari raya prayers.. but went alone since im late... coz im so kind hearted by letting the others go toilet 1st... grrrrrr

then came back... eat... forgiving time with parents... then at 11+ went out to raye.....

damn!!! was super tiring ok! haha last house was like 12am and i kinda fall asleep at someone house haha

and today... went to the other 3 houses and now juz gt back...

but today was kinda fun... back at the lorry.. otw to bukit batok... the guys... all cucu ismail ok! aha we do dissing battle... thanks eh haha coz of rapper wannabe... so we got dissing... haha and they were surprise that i dissed haha coz they always noe that im the most quitest and kinda obedient in the family... WHICH IS SOOOO NOT TRUE!!! haha

so now am fully tired but one thing for sure... juz to say... raye is kinda boring this year! haha

Ps: since the 1st day of raye... i gt urine incontinence haha

raye tomorow

2009-09-19T15:16:00.002+08:00

tittle:raye tomrow

raye's tomorow... and super lazy to clean the house haha

anyway ystd... after skool... went out with the usual peeps!! weeeeeee happy oik!!!
went to bowling at marina.... but guess wat? THE WHOLE LOT TK PUASE OK... EXCEPT ME... haiz... so... went to marina...and then to book the bowling... but we have a queue number... so after getting a spot... we went to ljs... juz to accompany them for lunch..... then went walking ard... and i gt the call from the superbowl... so we went up back and had bowling...

since most of them didnt noe how to play... it was fun watching them having trouble to throw... loads of idiotic moment... and pic whores!! ahah i wonder hows danial doing... uploading all the pic haha

so after bowling... went to carls junior to meet yusri.... i told them i wanna buy food for ma breakfast... but they went all the way there... so reached there... i ran to qiji to buy nasi lemak and soon kueh... so sweet of filzah to follow haha and she bought chee chiong fun... haha bukan cheng chang fun eh? haha

while walking at the carpark... saw this lady... cry like nobody's business ok... like lost a child... actually... she doesnt noe where she parked her car... scary ok haha... so bought break-fast food... rush back to carl's junior... break ma fast... and yusri cooked for us... GIGANTIC CILI CHEESE FRIES... omg i misss the fries ok!!! haha then we talk non stop for like 2+hours then went to subway coz i wanna buy chicken teriyaki...*see ash?? how to loose weight? urgh!*

then dann had to go home... us went to lepak at 4 sticks... but not even half an hour.. saw police... so we had to go... before we get screened! urgh! i hate it! so then went hom at 10+... reached home at 11+... talk on the phone and went to sleep

PS:urgh tomorow raye's... gonna be fake crys goin on... haiya.... haha

like the 1st dae

2009-09-14T21:10:00.000+08:00

tittle:like the 1st dae

since 3 months we were seperated... i miss ma clans in class!! omg omg omg!! yea!! we've met each other again... the excitement starts to burst up... im back to be the most irrtating smallest kid in class haha

not oni i miss them... but certain other nursing mates too ahhaa

so we've met our new CA's and kinda tryin to get use to them...

but things are abit diff feeling nowadays... becoz of fasting maybe???

SETAN! lunch time all buke ok... except me.. like im the oni goody² grrrrr!!!!

anyway... went home... went to banquet to this new ayam penyet stall.. bought it... buke time i eat it and i tell eu...

FREAKING SPICY OK! AND TILL I DRINK 2 BIG BOTTLES OF WATEVA DRINK I DRANK...... omg!!! its damn spicy!!!!
but it was great feeling... i miss cafe 2 nasi ayam... well come on!! puase another 6 days left! azhar!! jaiyou!!! haha

JAIIIHOOOOO haha

PS:im not gonna treat eu like i used to.... i understand...i dun wanna make the situation worst...

i gotta feeling

2009-09-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

tittle:eur de`ja vu is true

once again... im hurt... more then ever... but im hoping eu will be better and gain his trust back...
hoping that eur relationship is still strong... i've heard that he's a strong guy... eu should better be off with him... cherish him then eva...

im stepping down now... hoping that we're still frens... all i do is hoping... i cnt say much...
i thought yesterday was the best night... but it turned down to sorrows..right when home time... i knew it all already... i dun wanna be the 3rd party... its my wrong too... to continue flirting with eu... even though i have the right to stop it when i already noe that eur attached... but im weak in love... eu've enter right when i was really broken hearted and hopeless... i thought we will grew fine but not for long.... haiz...

couldnt be nothing else

2009-09-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

tittle:baby,couldnt be nothing else

ystd went to buke with b... haha go where? charco's haha thanks to aini lah weeeeeeee
not really bad lah the place... as in not like really full like i went last week...

so after buke... went to watch g-force haha... CUTE OR WAT!!??!! but then the storyline is sooo common.. soo cartoon common haha.... and something cathces my mind... the last part was sooo transformers haha

anyway...*wink²* tada haha random kan?

then went off to wlds to lepak...*wink²*

then b catches the last bus home...

PS:i guess... its better we off as best fren... hearing eur problems... i juz felt very wrong...its ok dear.. im srry too...

tired

2009-09-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

tittle:super tired

okaaayyy ppl.. ONE MORE WEEK TO BACK TO CAMPUS!!! ahha

kk lets start with the missing post...

on last sunday... went buke with aini,syakilla,kiddo,sheril an arul

went to charcos at amk... 1st time being there... well... it is really interesting and nice and for once i FIRST TIME EATING RIBS ok ahha super nice lah!!! aini² stop saying bout smelling ribs lah urgh!

then went comes to dance prac... i cnt dance... ma stomach bloated... haha

so ystd.. went back to work... and 1st time saw the poly students... *zie get ready! goonna be loads more ok!!! haha*

well we need more time to wash eyes!

anyways... whoever feeling down.. cheeer up aite? rayes coming hehe

tata tc peeps! muacks!

ystd,today

2009-09-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

tittle ystd today

semalam i call eu,eu tak answer... haha ceyyyyyy srry b... i slept while waiting for eur call... ahha

anyway.... ystd went geylang and ate at selera food there...AGAIN..BUT with ma group mate haha ceyyy

zie,naz,priya,azyan,bani and me.... ate a feast... ahah ceyyy

well supposely after polyclinic....we should meet them at paya lebar at 6pm... but this bani doesnt want to bring bag... so we went home... changed.... and guess wat? LATE.... lucky i blanje naek cab go there.... rushed to joo chiat to draw money.... haiya... me and bani buke ape? PLAIN WATER 1ST haha siak!!!

rushed to kedai makan*saw tok jusoh daughter i think* then continue buke with them...

then bani had to left and priya too and naz... haiz.. how sad....

saw aina and adi... OMG I MISS HER... hugged her HUGE TIME ok hhaa lepas kan rindu... adi like getting sachok.. CEYYYYY haha

then met azyan ex and we 4 go sheesha....
me,zie,azyan and danial ahha

ni danial... EX azyan eh... not other dann... jng terase haha

anyway me and zie EYE-WHORE haha we kept looking... cair non stop... then took the train till bugis till sheesha till went home till zie actually must drop at amk but she drop at dhoubu ghaut haha... EU MISSED ALOT OK ZIE haha

anyway ystd was moderately mild... kinda ok but abit boring...

ANWAY

today.... went out to suntec dance... LAST MIN PLAN BY AZMICK OK... skejap jek tk lame hehe
met him and his crew at suntec... watch abit... eye whore and then proceed to marina to buke haha.... buke at QIJI*although we had alot of hard time trying to pronounce it,...*

me,azmick,khai,ari,sri aliff and wan and bella.... haha... me,bella and azmick... partner in crime abis... makan tk senang haha.... then after buke.. went to esplanade rooftop to lepak... was kecoh and fun... then at 10pm i rushed to fullerton hotel to meet kai,roche and rogue... YEA YEA haha... the event theme was cool.....

and and

ROGUE ROGUE... THE TWINS..DRUMMER AND GITARIST!!*melts superly* haha we take each k? hgaha siak...

after watching... me and rogue went back lepak with them... then went home... haiya... tiring lah but still not enough fun!!!

im getting sick now... URGH!
PS:disappointed

tc peeps MUACKS!

geylang

2009-09-02T20:37:00.002+08:00

tittle:out to breakfast

yea yea... ystd... was a holiday for us and we went to break fast at geylang... surprisingly LOADS of us turn up and turns out to be almost 20... ate at selera kopitiam...*used to be panggung singapura at geylang*

was hell lots of fun!!! haha

dann,radyn,dinnie,iffah,filzah,wira,rishi,
sham,aliya,vani,uma,
iqbal,zul,sid,nelly,annu,aini,brenda and me

haha kecoh ryte? well it was cool though... we ate alot till we cnt really walk... but we manage to walk about... met up with yusri and ayme and they said nampak fahmi... which i missed him.. TSK! haha then yar... loads other ppls... haha

was fun lah ystd but it turn sucks when we wanna go home... KENA SCREEN!! urgh!!! all of us... like illegal immigrant... guys and girls each side... sit there at singpost... kena screen... nabuey haha

after screening went home.... and iffah... DIRTY LIL SECRET OK! EU NOE I NOE... KERUSI KECOH PE CAP² haha

reached home at 12+.. msg b...pity b coz gt headache and have to sleep... haiya... take care k?

i've gtg... im super tired after polyclinic... anyway... i slept on one of the observation.. how embarassing... i dun care about profesionalism... i juz care about of modest ceyyyyyyyyy haha

tata ppl tc!
muacks!

movie

2009-08-30T22:28:00.000+08:00

tittle:year one

ystd went out to buke with someone haha... then went to watch year one.. at 9.20pm haha... cool lah de story.... but overall... it was oni 3/5.. funny but not really... but it do ask questions that we normal ppl keep thinking... example... why are we referring god as a he but nt a she.... and loads more lah haha

but the rating of whats goin on in the cinema was 8/5 haha wooohooo!!!!! nk lagi nk lagi haha

anyway today's dance.. was super boring but at least we came out some choreo... arul teached some of the malay dancers whom is strangers to us but hopeless haha dah baek kasi free lesson ok!! ahha

btw² brought this cool drink called bavaria... IT SMELLS,TASTE,LOOKS exactly like BEER but!!!!! its actually mineral/sparkling juice... i fooled ma dad and bro though...

smngt bapak marah haha

k lah till here!! tomorow 1st day of poly! wish me luck!!

and peeps... TUESDAY! I CNT WAIT! UMMACKS! hehe

pointless

2009-08-29T16:26:00.000+08:00

tittle:i cnt understand still...

i juz couldnt think of whats really goin on... since i was 14 till now.... like years already... why do i always end up with a date thats always plays with ma feelings? i couldnt understand eu guys... haiz... soooo much reasons to tell... but one thing... eu juz wanted to left and finish of the date... haiz....

isit ma appearence?isit juz becoz im fat? am i even fat? i juz gt flabs thats all.... and i cnt even understand... when im down or lonely... non came to talk or to text me asking me if im fine and tried to cheer me up... infact... they changed the topic... like hello?!? didnt i tell eu i need care,love and concern... and eu've told me that eu cn try to give but cnt be committed enough... i understand but cnt eu try a lil? and to think that i've told eu i liked eu... and eu've told the same... but end up.. eu tried to move away... i cn tell by eur text msgs...

i really cnt understand....
why must it be soo hard on me... and this has been the same thing that happened to me since 2005... the same thing..
urrghhhh i've always been treated like a puppet with strings... even though im strong... but im weak in a way... haiz...

karaoke

2009-08-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

tittle:karaoke

HAPPY 19TH B'DAY ANDRE!!! aha was ystd though haha
after work... went to rogues house at 5+ to str8ten her hair....

then proceed to tamp haha oops... srry we late... buke in bus with oni chrysantemum tea haha
then reached tamp interchange.. bought gateux cake for andre and a small strawberry mooncake for us haha

went to bedok to meet them... myra,albino gal and andre haha... well andre bought this cool helicopted thingy that cost $80+ haha its cool but I SWEAR I WILL NEVER BUY IT coz i really dunno how to control it haha

bought fried rice with rosted chicken then went to cash studio... OUH GAWD... from 8pm-11pm we sang like nobody's business.... was SUPER FUN YSTD AND TIRING!! haha buke kat karaoke studio ok! haha sang alot till ma voice hurts... went to mac intention to buy green tea but end up double fillet meal haha... continue eating.... cut cake... singing... then before went home... smoke break and theres this 2 bapok.. from behind very woman but when look infront... i swear... ANGLES WINGS WILL BE BROKEN AND FALL ROLIING ON THE FLOOR....if they saw them... muke very jantan... haiya... but nvm.... its them... wattado... i gt bapok frens but more beautiful then them haha

well... while smoke breaking... played the helicopter... we kept shouting coz its sooooo high but end up falling haha and almost fall on the road... rush to catch the last bus... THANKS EH... BUS PANAS NK MAMPOSE..... saw zuraidi though... ke rashidi? haha i fergot his name... then tada.... reached home at 1+... bathe.. texting... then sleep.... and now... juz now... help a green butterfly to go out from ma house... it was stuck inside haha poor thing... the thing when it walks on ma finger... super ticklish haha

k lah... goin out soon though to catch a movie haha cnt wait!
muacks eu ppl!!!!!

PS:2 more weeks to end of attachment..

i cnt understand

2009-08-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

tittle:wats with blogger nowadays... now ma posting looks like a notepad... haiz...

anyway... today's like the 3rd day of fasting and the 1st time im working while fasting... sexy ey? haha
gt loads of obstacles but was ok though... enough bout today...

YESTERDAY...

erin and wiwi ask to go out at 330pm ystd aha since boredom at home.... then met them at interchange... went to cotton... thought of window shopping but bought 2 shirts... MY MAIN MOTIVE WAS JUZ TO BUY KEBAB... REMEMBER EH PPL... haha

so bought 2 SHIRTS FROM COTTON ON.... then went to bazaar with wiwi... as erin gotta go work.. *wiwi² we kept looking for the indonesian guy haha*
then went to bazaar... bought TULANG MERAH AND 3 KEBABS.... so then went out from bazaar... DRAW MONEY... saw nadia and her sister.... then went to buy kurma for her dad... then i went and buy NANGKA GORENG...8 PIECE..... then went lepak at this road... haha with wiwi oni... nad went home...me and wiwi... mate bersih clean ok! haha

sing...dance...do stoopid stuff... check out stuff that we bought... OUH YEA... wiwi bought LOADS of bangles at chameleon haha(ke-me-lee-on),(cha-melon),(char-me-leon) hah mcm² name cn?

then lepak... saw mr zaki... continue lepak... saw her ex date... talk about it... send her break up songs... then went to lepak at fushan.. well this part gerek..

WAS SITTING DOWN AT THIS PONDOK... THEN CAME A BLACK DOG.. CAME TO ME AND ASK FOR FOOD... WE WALK AWAY... THE DOG FOLLOWS... WIWI WAS FREAKING OUT TOO MUCH haha

omg omg omg the reaction was priceless haha
so tada... from one kebab... to loads of food... NOT TO MENTION AIR KATIRA haha sexy!!

k lah ppl... i wanna sleep... ma eyes droopy haha
tc peeps MUACKS haha

fasting

2009-08-22T13:29:00.000+08:00

tittle:fasting

so tada!!!today's the start of the day of fasting... hopefully i make it one month aite?

haiz... days are sooo full of up's and downn's.... stress of work.. and i felt like no one to let it out ma stressness.... haiz.....

i feel like breaking things haha cn i? i should... lets see haha

anyway.. I MISS MY PEEPS.... CNT WAIT TO GO BACK SKOOL!
MUACKS!

sexy hair

2009-08-18T21:00:00.002+08:00

tittle:sexy

ouh gawd plz!!!! im getting stress day by day while working aha but i had fun lah... more experience coming up!!

anyway.... waiting for someone to finish work haha... maybe a lil chat on the phone... wanted to meet tomorow but somebody out there was shy... doesnt want me to accompany back home... told me that it bothers me coz im tired from work... haha awww eu cared bout me.. muacks haha

anyway... juz cut ma hair.... a lil suckish but wth.. at least i trimmed it and ma head feels lighter!!!! now i cn head bang anywhere haha maybe tomorow? wooohooo haha

PS:something caught up on me and left me speechless...

sheesh

2009-08-16T01:04:00.002+08:00

tittle:sheesh

waaaaaaa today seriously... plan... last minute but... ok lah haha
supposely meeting zie at costa sand... end up at mac at downtown... thanks fer making me walk extra miles haha

so then met up.... ate at mac... then went to sheesha at mosi cafe..... and frankly... i dun feel like eating there again! i gt cheated!! urgh!

ok nvm... lets story 1st k?
me and zie mcm date arh.... sat at a 2 seat table... brought drinks and waited for filzah and jas...
tada!!! we reach ard 5+... they reached at 7+... haha nvm... so sat... they bought food... we ate... then waited for zie's fren.. skali dtg.. MCM RAYE OK! aha loads siak... theres no space... so they seperated to arabia... and there came her date... and 3 other frens haha... sat together... sheesha... do stoopid stuff... and i order frank sandwich... and the waiter doesnt noe? haiyo!! ask for hotdog also dun understand haiya! i guess he's freaking foreigner lah... DUH haha

then went the food arrive... THANKS EH GT CHEATED!
supposely gt three franks... but the last frank... CUT THE TIP TO MAKE IT LOOK THREE... THEN CUT THE OTHER TOP TO MAKE THE BOTH BREAD HAVE THREE FRANKS.... damn it! urgh! and the fries... LIKE ONI 5 STICKS AND THE CABBAGE LIKE WAT? A PINCH? NABEY CHAO CHIB... AND I PAID $6 FOR IT? CB

but then come again... i hate complaining... i dun wan things to get worst urgh!

so stayed till 10+... went home... and tada!! back here!! tired!! nk sleep! haha weeeeeee
k nyte ppl!!! tc aite! blog soon
muacks!!!

Ps:eu've made ma day and im lookin forward to meet eu.... haha... muacks!

sheesha

2009-08-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

tittle:sheeshaing

thanks to paradiso girls song...patron tequila... keep saying IM DRUNK ON MAGARITA... and guess wat? bought it juz now while sheesha-ing... HEAVEN i should say haha

supposely today plan was to gather with the old clans.... but dann wanna go out with his soccer buddies... rishi bz... wira i dunno... so left annu and filzah....

but luckily.... sham and radyn cp mates went out to bugis too for sheesha.... annu reached earlier to bugis.. so she follow them 1st... then me and filzah came later at 4+ and eat at zam zam...

after dinner... went off to sheesha at haji lane... i cnt remember the place name.... but the ambience is suuuppperr cool!!! so arabic!! haha

bought strawberry and mint sheesha.... and vani.... their cp mates... bought wedges and fries... i bought 2 watermelon juice *cant resist... it was tantalizing and i like it!!!* haha and a lemon magarita weeeeee SUPER NICE I TELL EU... haha annu and radyn!!!! eu said eu dun want... but end up... took some huh? haha i suuukkeee!!!

then after having fun with jokes... but actually i juz gt to noe them haha

so then went home as tomorow start working again haiz.....
i wish holiday was longer!! i wanna school!!!!! haha

PS:the waiter at the sheesha... HE'S SUUUPPERRR CHARMING!!! am i right girls? aha

muacks!

national day

2009-08-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

tittle:national day

this is home.... truely... where i noe... i must be... CEYYYYY smngt! haha

well yesterday its NATIONAL DAY haha and yeah.. most of the singaporeans loves to come down town juz to catch fireworks... but then come again... even the foreigners were there too haha

met up with kiddo at bns then went to cotton for last minute shopping....then went to meet soraya and sheril at mac...
then met up with azmick at raffles place... walk to one fullerton... and frankly.... SORAYA'S TRIPOD IS IRRTATING!!!!! URGH!!! haha
then andi and his sister and his sisters fren... cnt enter... so i have to get them and told the police they were ma siblings haha siak arh!!

then went in... lepak... play card... waiting for the fireworks time... at 7+..ain and yan came but cnt enter... sedih seyyyy haiz
while waiting bout loads of frappes and sandwhichs from starbucks haha... like thats the oni source of food haha

fireworks were coool but nt really awesome... looking forward for firework festival though haha

then after the fireworks.... went off to lau pa sat... but was super full so went to tanjong pagar kopitiam... but end up at macdonalds there.... had dinner.... then went off to clark quay and met up with rogue,wawan and african girl... we joke alot ok! tired lah haha
while on the way to clark quay... me and ain kept singing haha and at this certain place... runway walk ok! haha 6km walk huh? haha

then lepak at clark quay... went back at 12+... reach woodlands... lepak with sheril and soraya till 1+... then sent sheril home... reached home ard 130+... tired lah haha

nowww... waiting for the plan to go bugis with filzah... haiya haha weeeeeeee

i gtg watch tv for a moment... tata haha

everything's over

2009-08-08T13:01:00.000+08:00

tittle:partially over

so i guess this is it.... its over... maybe?i've confessed and i got nothing to hide from them now....
its better of this way... it wont be hurting me anymore

i took all my courage to do this.... i've tried to be strong....
but now... i have to be stronger...

well right now... im in a challenge...
hopefully i could make ma way through....

back to square one

2009-08-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

tittle:all over again?

thats it... i told maself to move on.... but here wat's happening....back to square one....
why must it be this way again?
why must it repeat... i gonna bear another few more weeks?till back to campus?

and i only need one thing from eu....its sooo simple and easy...
"ARE EU OK?"

THE ONLY PHRASE I WANNA HEAR FROM EU....

i dunno wats with eu... even as a simple fren asking another fren are eu ok?why are eu down? isnt it super simple to ask?

is eur mouth collecting hard rock golds?? to other ppl... its super easy for eu to open eur mouth.... i cn see with ma clear contacts eyes.... plz really tell me the truth.... the other day eu told me... i thought it was enough... but i cn see... it isnt...

its easy for eu to communicate with everyone...but me?

god.... i really had too much lah...
why must eu keep giving me these things that hurt me too much...
why must eu approve all my wishes which gave me sad moments...
why arent eu approving of wat i want??

is the satelite working up there?cn eu hear me?
i need answers... even though i noe i couldnt... haiz
srry god... but i really need to let it out... its not even a sin right to noe the truth?

too soon?

2009-08-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

tittle:too soon?

okaaayyy that was too soon... someone wants to get to noe me... but it was too soon to be with... i cnt understand haha

anyway... todays work was fine... didnt noe like in medical is more tiring then surgical.. its tiring coz theres a little less thing to do then surgical ward... more like... tired of standing.. i've done bad to ma legs haha

i need a massage plz!!! urgh!!!!

am suuupppeeerrr tiiirreeeddd!!!!!
anyway... 9th august is coming haha cnt wait!!! ouh no!!! get ready to msg the whole lot of them hehe!!
weeeeeeeeee

=)

ride around

2009-08-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

tittle:riding

ceeyyyyyyyy IFA HAS A NEW CAR SEYYYYY waaaa was hounourd that she gave me and shedah a ride haha

ermm lepak with shedah after work with zana and this guy dunno the name haha oops!
then she had to go... so me and shedah sat at sec skool to watch they march ahha how i miss those days ok!
then went off to meet ifa at cwp... gt into the car... which was freaking cute haha and off to bedok to meet her fren....

for this directory thing to find where her mom is...*dun laugh ok!* haha

aaannnddd.... SHEDAH FOR THE 1ST TIME DROVE ME AND IFA AROUND FOR A MOMENT HAHA....shocking ey? now i noe how she reacts when she drives haha

made ALOT of jokes... and being in ifa;s car make me road sick ahah... she drove like rollercoaster ok!

then set off to furama riverfront at outram then back home.....

.......

well... for me... my mind is set clear.....i clear out things with somebody and now i wanna treat him like a fren...
no more stupid thoughts.... im happy this way..... im happy of what i've done... no more confusion...

=)

unspoken

2009-08-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

tittle:unspoken

the 1st day today and everything was sooooo different... like i juz stepped into the course... and gt no idea wat to do...
the environment is soooooo diff.....
i saw someone soooo familiar..... and juz now... met asyraff... after like 3 years not contacting..waaa

anyway.... gt this person... looks kinda possesed... i dunno how to handle... am scared... i gt weak when the chanting starts... haiz...

anyway... im getting confuse day by day... i wish i get the answers fast and direct.. i dun wanna put on high hopes again...haiz..

*how i wish... things were easier and open in this world... haiz*

another day at swensens

2009-08-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

tittle:another day at swensens

ouh gosh... was fuck up though when get to noe that we actually need to march ard the stadium juz now at yck... holding a sports equipment up and walk... kinda like ndp... haiyo!!!! haha

but at least i gt to wash eyes though....gt one person... omg!! cute ok!! haha urgh!!! haha

then went to city hall... yan,ain and kiddo... we guys met sheril at train... then to cityhall... met up with aini,syafiqah and syakilla haha then off to pastamania for eating!!! yea!!! haha

then a special b;day ice cream surprise at swensens!! wooohoo!! actually ystd i ate at swensens! haiyo!!
so total up!! I WENT UP A FEW KGS NOW I GUESS! URGH!!!!!!!!!!

so i guess i have to diet now! haiz

anyway... tomorows the new day at a new ward...haiz... wish us luck!
=)

haha tc ppl muacks!!

happy 17th b;day kiddo!! haha

swenens,pastamania,yck stadium.... i could still remember the cuties i saw haha

happy nurses day

2009-08-02T01:59:00.000+08:00

tittle:happy nurses day

woohoo happy nurses day.... and my inbox is getting full of it haha
anyway... treated ma dearest to swensens... but sadly some wasnt there

wira,rishi and filzah gt to enjoy swensens... but i promise ma dear dann,radyn,annu,sham.. i WILL TREAT EU GUYS TOO OK!
went shopping today which cost me almost $200 haiz..

total spent for days... $400+ haiyo!! i need to stop using the money now

haha cnt say much... too many things happen but things turn out good today...
fireworks galore at 8pm haha then went home

say zana pisang and karim! OUH GOD I MISS THEM!!!! talk till 12+ and went home..
haha ape karim?pecah lobang? oops! aha

muacks to eu peeps! ammak! haha

a new chapter

2009-07-31T18:44:00.000+08:00

tittle:a new chapter...

so there it goes... our last day at the ward... changing ward next week.... haiz... gonna miss all the staffs there...
haiz..

anyway juz now went for a while at the nurses day celebration... cute ok! haha rushing for MNM'S! haha
cnt say much coz i left quite early... was tired after work...

wanted to go starbucks but then ppl were lining up quite long...
anyway... work was kinda tiring but i gonna miss the patients too haiz...

cnt say much now coz im super dead tired!!

anyway... saw dead gorgeous ppl ok! aha
and saw erin!! haha miss her lah oik! haha

kk tc peeps... am super tired..
wanna rest

*zzzzz*

pissed off

2009-07-30T22:26:00.004+08:00

tittle:pissed off

haiz... and till now... i still dunno whats goin on with the performance thingy... i dunno wat event,whats goin on,what the theme would be,etc² haiz....

i hate those last min plans.... im bz with work ok!i cnt get off days... its attachment.... ma shift is either 7-3 or 1-9... its super tiring!! haiz

anyway.... tomorow is our last day at the ward... gonna change ward next week... I GONNA TOTALLY MISS THEM!!! haiz seriously!! gonna take loads of photos then gonna make a thanks card and gave it to them!! weeee

anyway bought facial and body care stuff and cost me nearly $200+ but then after all sexy discounts... its only $100+ yea!! haha good discount ok!!! haha

k lah peeps tc! gonna rush to sleep! tomorow morning shift! haiz!!

1st PS:AM SUPER FREAKING ANGRY COZ OF SOMETHING AND MORE BROKEN HEARTED THEN USUAL...
2nd PS:currently... am really happy with someone...totally miss him!long time never contacted!!
=)

so eu could see i cn be in two different places at one time... eu will never see me cry...

MUACKS PPL!!

honestly

2009-07-29T10:28:00.003+08:00

tittle:honestly

honestly right now.... i guess its time to move on....
I WILL COMPLETELY FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING...
every single feelings about you.....

i guess its right.... it is wrong for me to be waiting for something impossible....
im completely drift away into fantasy for the past few months.... i've bothered ppl whom i closed with.... forget all those sad post of mine... i shouldnt have been producing unrealistic feelings when the truth is... im in living in fantasy...

i still gonna miss all those times i do stupid moves to eu... thinking that i will eva get eu...
but then again.... eu moved on already... and im still stucked here....

it may seem that im still young... yea ppl do say that its still young to be having love...17 ey?but eu wouldnt noe when will eu eva die right? this is the age where most teenagers/adult teen will start to have those feelings.... feelings of crush,anxiety,affection,love where i didnt even get to taste it.... it do takes time... i cnt rush... but... when i stop rushing... it starts to be lonely... REAL LONELY....

oh allah... when will i eva get into reality?
when will i eva had to get the taste of love?
why am i in this situation?
why am i born this way?
is this the obstacle and test eu've gave to me?

it hurts too much........

emptiness

2009-07-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

tittle:i was born to make eu happy

todays monday ppl!! MONDAY!! ouh gawd... im tired!! haha tired of yawning....
well todays work was kinda ok... slacky but ok lah.... gd great fun though haha

kecian zie today... her cubic is empty so shes transfered to mine haha yea!! gt fren!! hha
omg omg omg partners in crime doin their job ok!!! haha
well its our last week in the ward!! gonna miss the staffs there!! urgh!!! haha

well yesterday was utterly super shockin!! was goin to dance prac when gt to know that studio one was occupied... so got up to check it out and guess wat? KAT,BB,FEEZAH AND EFFIE WAS THERE!! omg omg omg i miss them!!!!! they were having their dance there though!! argh!!! haha so we kinda combined together haha

awwww gt three other guys though... as wat zie said... EYE CANDID haha
well today was kinda a eye candid day too!! but not real much haiz.... hoping for better tomorow!! haha

well back to dancing... decided to go on solo for each of us... then last part combine... sucky plan but wattado... last min ok!! sat gonna shop!! woohooo my $800 is in!! yea!!! haha

anyway...
currently missing someone!! but doesnt reply back my hugs!! haiz... sad ok!!! haha siak arh...
=(
PS:jng terase if its eu ok... it might be someone else haha

do eu noe how it feels like? loving someone thats in a rush to throw eu away.....
do eu noe do eu noe do eu noe..... haiz..

fairytale life

2009-07-26T14:29:00.002+08:00

tittle:fairytale life

took a quiz at facebook... and the stats are like SOOO TRUE!!!! haha

Even though you've been told more than once that fairytales doesnt exist,you just wont let it go:your're a big romantic and you carry on waiting for them.A smile,a bunch of flowers,a candle-lit dinner,a sensual kiss under a starry sky... some would say its an old-fashioned view but you love it! you fall in love easily but your a natural worrier and are always afraid of being abondoned.you have a continual need to be reassured in your relationships,which can sometimes be tiresome for your partners.this easy-goin,affectionate person reassures you.
You like snuggling up in their arms.they are of a faithful nature,and by their side,you will no longer be afraid of being abondoned.they help you to express your emotions and to liberate yourself from your fears.before meeting them,you feel like a little boy but they enable you to gain confidence and,if they were to ask you to be the father of their children you'd gladly accept!!

ok the part where the "being a father of their child"...NOT IN THE DICTIONARY haha

but the rest.... yeap... its sooo true...
haiz....

PS:ash...living in fairytale mood live... haiz
=(

another day

2009-07-25T23:16:00.003+08:00

tittle: another day

so today... like our weekly meet up but the 5 of us only... since the drinkers oni... but today i dun drink much... i dun have the mood yet....

still dwelling but i kinda trying to stop it haiz...
hopefully what i dreamt will come true!! i really want my dream to come true and really exactly how i wanted it to be.... haiz

anyway... meet up was OK haha but then again... quite bored when comes to an end... rishi had to go club... filzah had to be home before 10pm.... area was quite COCKRO-ISH eewwww aha
wira brought this stoopid thing which all of us want it to be thrown away.... vanish and gone actually!!

and yea... was bored and bought this cute green snoopy bubble... 70 cents oni haha so had fun blowing bubbles!! weeeeee haha

PS: ATTENTION PLZ... COULD ALL THE CLANS.... PLZ MAKE EURSELF FREE ON NEXT SAT OK!!! ALL OF EU..... DANN,RADYN,FILZAH,WIRA,ANNU,RISHI,SHAM and maybe more like AYME AND IFFAH AINA...*OUH GAWD WE MISS HER* AND TADA!!! haha

these ppl!! plz!!! i wanna have a small photo session together at some local deserted unused train rails haha plz plz!! its been a while since we last took photo together!! i miss it ok!!!!!!! argh!!!! haha

i really wanna kiss eu all!!1*CHIKOPEK* ummaks!! haha

let me be the one too

2009-07-25T00:59:00.002+08:00

i juz gt back... on the tv on okto... 98.7 was on... and guess wat?

"baby eu should let me love eu...let me be the one too"

haha omg!!! let me love you by mario!! i miss that song ok!!!!! haha

anyway..... listed down all ma stupid acts when i start working till i goin back home...

:12+pm
-stare at this guy who looks SOOO MALE MODEL haha and nazirah was awed ok!! haha

:1pm
-juz started shift... and i did something stoopid... shh!!!!

:8+pm
-was super bored at cubicle.... on computers notepad... "msn" with margret and zie haha cute huh? and bani came along haha

-went to commode room with zie... climb onto commode and ask zie to push me and arm rest accidentally open... shouted like mad... i scared i'd fall ok!! haha

- bodoh² kan apek....

12+am:
-me and shedah... was super scared by a cockroach... then we actually jumped and run in the middle of a dark path haha

if eu seen our reaction... eu will faint cause of laughing haha

anyway... altogether... I CNT WAIT FOR TOMOROW!! WOOHOOO haha

"eu can talk all eu want but my skin is really thick!"

=)
muacks!

it sucks

2009-07-22T20:17:00.003+08:00

ok 1stly... i dunno whats goin on with the blog new post thingy... it looks distorted in this web... haiz

anyway.... after work... i suddenly had this moody feeling... i aint feeling talking,laugh joke... all i do was walking slowly... staring down...

so took the train... in the train... i think tooo much till i actually burst into tears... OMG... MALU PE!!!

thanks wira for the tissue... which it stained with meesiam smell haha made me hungry when i wipe ma tears... thanks naz for the worriedness...but eu kept laughin i dunno why haha coz of wira? coz of seeing someone sooooo happy for all his life suddenly saw him burst into tears....

and i dunno bout bani...nvm...
gt down at wlds.... accompany him to cold storage to buy chocs for his sister... cute ey? haha

now gt home... was tired... cried too much... slept... and now woken up... HUNGRY!!

*ran to kitchen*
=)

my high hopes comes to an end

2009-07-20T22:45:00.002+08:00

tittle:high hopes came to an end

this is it.... the worst part that eva i imagined... i guess... the treatment between us is no longer the same like it used to be... i could feel it....

i guess its letting go....

frens is now possible... i wouldnt wanna think much bout eu.... i wanna see eu like those normal ppl i know and be frens with

im tired of woo-ing ppl... im tired of trying to flirt... im tired of fate... tired of waiting for it....
im tired of being foolishly in love..... im tired of everything....
im tired of those critics i got... even though am landing myself in tertiary level of studying....
why ppl still not growing up???

i juz couldnt figure out... WHY MUST I BORN THIS WAY?? the obstacle is tough... not too... but its tough... im really trying really hard to pass through it... the more i tried to succeed... the more obstacle strucks... haiz.... i wanted the world to be an open world..... accepting mankind of whoeva they are...

haiz

gather up weekend meeting

2009-07-19T00:22:00.002+08:00

tittle:off to ayam penyet!!

SHIT! i miss ma clans LOADS OK!!! was super happy meeting all of them!!!!! argh!!!
cut it short...

we went off to have lunch at ayam penyet ria at novena... well me and anu bought pomfret fish penyet and the others... ayam penyet... with loads of drinks ahha

the sambal super power spicy ok!!! haha and its really filling and delicious!! weeeeee i dunno their grade though haha.... share all our diff experience in attachment since we're in diff hospitals..... but most of all... CANT WAIT TO GO BACK TO SKOOL!!! i wanna be with them!!!! haiz.... how i miss them soooo much!!!

went off to orchard... went to subway at far east... had cookies... and got lost in plan at orchard... haiya.. lucky gt an idea to went to marina square..... so met yus there as he's working...too bad he's working till closing.... so bought some drinks and cakes at carls junior... which i wanna eat the cake again there haha and we went off to marina bay open park... near the staircase hehe... well rishi had to go..... so we sat and lepak.... dann had to go ard 6+ and sham had to ard 7+... and we realise that today was ndp preview... YAYNESS!! fireworks!! aha

so left us... watch fireworks... became abit crazy..... and then after that...gt tired and went back home... well some of us are tired and some had curfews... so yea... haiz... went back with ice and wani too... as we met them at marina...

well overall... today plan was abit down.... but it was ok... at least we meet each other for like wat?being seperated for 2 weeks+?? IMY ALL SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!! ESPECIALY EU EU EU!!

PS:bought a blue cute shirt... thanks radyn for the advice haha

the peeps who were there:me,dann,filzah,wira,rishi,annu,sham,radyn
sad though as some were not to make it... haiz...

anyway... for the past few days... this is wat i felt in me....

cry from rihanna

my mind is gone,im spinning round
and deep inside,my tears i'll drown
im loosing grip
whats happening?
i stray from love,this is how i feel

it hurts me when i blame my own fate... but i couldnt stay any longer...how long should i be left in a one sided love thingy?? how long??? wouldnt that person till now actually realise how much i really into eu? haiz....

and the stoopid thing is... till now... i couldnt get away from this problem... i couldnt let it go... haiz

and whenever im working... and i was sidetracking for a moment... it makes me down whenever this part of saygoodbye song strucks me....

so how cn i follow my heart,to let eu go
when my heart choose to be with eu....

urgh!!!! oh god!! plz let the person noe how much am i really into that person.... in anyways... a dream maybe? haiz

weekend meet up

2009-07-12T00:18:00.002+08:00

tittle:weekend meet up

ouh gaawwd... its been a week since i didnt met up with filzah and annu haha
went chilling at lakeside juz now

annu,filzah and wira... well the others...ermm... shopping by the end of the month k? ahha
well.... they wanted to drink soooo much so they bought absolute a bottle... and orange juice... then sat at this dome and chilling and drinking...

haiyo!!! each of us... look bad when drunk... well im not drunk ok!! im not!! am juz sleepy haha
if i am... i wouldnt be online by now ok! haha

anyway... we played this dare... and i will never forget about it haha
we four only noe....
PS:filzah... eur the 1st gal to be my victim in the dare haha

it was kinda boring as its only four of us... not much stories though... annu had to go club at 10 coz its her frens b'day and wira had to go too...

so left me and filzah... bought some snacks and talk till we get too tired and head back home...

i wanna chat now.... tc peeps
muacks!! haha

IM MISSING EACH AND EVERYONE OF EU...MY DEAREST CLAN HAHA
muacks!!!!

missing eu...

warheads!

2009-07-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

tittle: i need sweets

thanks to bani for the idea... i need sweets in ma mouth... sometimes it gets bored... and after lunch.. need some sweets or ma breathe stinks with sambal i ate before starting back working... haha

using mask ok!! eu could die of suffocation with eur own stinky breathe!! haha kidding!!

well saw the roster for next week and...... BANI!! DUN LEAVE ME!!! he's taking the other room... well juz beside lah haha so not to worry... hand signal will do... at least we gt the same break haha
*lemon chicken rice again ok?!?*
haha

well todays kinda tiring and lots of things has happened
new things i meant... and im happy to learn... weeeeee

hoping for more new things to be learnt!! haha
PS:i love what i dreamnt before i woken up to get ready for work....

hehe muacks!!

say goodbye

2009-07-08T17:16:00.002+08:00

title:change my mp3 player to the song saygoodbye by haz

got this song for like almost 2 weeks *thanks to dann* and i juz realise... the lyrics... are soooo true and it really fits what am i goin through...

so i high light abit aite? and btw the nick of this person is Dee...since i cnt tell out the name right? only certain ppl would understand who am i referring too....

first verse*
baby,i know we cant do this anymore
and i noe we have to say goodbye
but i didnt want it to be this way

so that part there....the part where i noe we cnt do this anymore...its like... i cnt even contact much with dee since attachment has started... and would like to give some time off... i dun want it to be something thats bothering dee

and i noe we have to say goodbye....is where i start to seperate with dee... i cnt get in contact that much and the part i didnt want it to be this way... is really true... i dun really want it to be this way... but its got to be this way... forgetting dee is the way to reduce my burden in love...

continue...
what am i about to say,you havent heard b4
but i gotta be honest to myself cause i gotta let eu go
you think i cn be with eu,you're a forbidden fruit
and i hate that religion came between us two
i dun wanna lose eu,if i had to choose eu baby
the answer for that,is to be with eu
i dun wanna go through,with tryna make it
but i noe eu dun wanna see me getting hurt

translate in me...
this is what im trying to bottle out... eu haven heard of me b4
i gotta be honest to myself that i really like eu...but i cnt do it coz i gotta let eu go... eur really different to me in terms of loving gender
i tried to think that i cn be with eu but its like a forbidden fruit... something so forbidden that i cnt even fall to eu...
and i hate the part where it stated in religion that we cnt be together...
i really dun wanna lose eu coz eur the dream that i really wanted... and if i had to choose... its always will be eu as my answer..and that is.. its to be with eu

and my most favourite part
baby dont leave,baby i want eu to stay
i'll do everything to make it work
but i feel we need to go our seperate ways
before we end up getting hurt

i really dont want eu leave me literally.. and i always wanted eu to stay in my heart
and i tried every single way to win eu and make it work
but it all fails... and we had to go our seperate ways... eu be eu... and i'll be me since.. we cnt be with each other...
and before any of us getting hurt... especially me... since i develop this feelings to maself...
haiz... stoopid am i?

the best part...
so how cn i follow my heart,to let eu go
when my heart choose to be with eu
why did we try from the start,if it wasnt right
and now we have to turn the page and say goodbye

so how cn i really let eu go when my heart still wants eu to stay...
why did i ever tried to win eu when everything wasnt right
and right now... i have to turn to a new page... start afresh... and say goodbye to this stoopid feelings...

in the 1st place... when should i start to develop this feelings to eu?
haiz..